“Mother of Sorrows”, Benedictines of Mary Queen of Apostles, from the album “Lent At Ephesus”, (2014)
The government’s roaring and posturing has subsided to the distant rumble of a passing train, my technology has returned to good behaviour with no permanent damage, and family has returned well from a brief hospital stay.
I am grateful to God for what has been given and also for what has been taken away even though it was, at times, extremely painful.
Again I am posting quotes from Fr. John A. Kane, from that wonderful book by John A. Kane called “How To Make A Good Confession”.
As mentioned previously, in this book I have found tremendous consolation with respect to inner feelings which I have been going through for several years now.
Father John goes on to say:
“… Penitence is born of a consciousness of sin, and a consciousness of sin deepens with the passing of life. Repentance, therefore, intensifies as we grow older. …
… The commission of the first actual sin is a mere insignificant commonplace, inspiring no reasonable shame or analysis of its cause nor any deep realization of its full enormity.
As we grow older we begin to feel the actual consequences of sin, the evils flowing from it that afflict us and those we love.
Gradually the knowledge of its real nature, the secret disorder wrought by it, and the ruin and desolation that it brings into the soul unfold themselves to the mind.
As the years pass, this inward working of sin becomes more vivid, more terrible.
It deepens more and more as the end of life approaches; and at the hour of death, even when our lips have been purpled and our souls washed with the blood of our God, even then, just because of the soul’s brilliant spiritual beauty, sin becomes all the more foul and ugly.
Since, therefore, the keenness of the sense of sin measures the depth of repentance, penitence must grow with advancing years.” (John A. Kane, “How To Make A Good Confession”, pp 9-10)
In all things, may the most holy, the most just, and the most lovable will of God be done, praised, and exalted above all forever. Thy will be done, Oh Lord, thy will be done. The Lord has given, the Lord has taken away, blessed be the name of the Lord.