Life in a small town, The Inner Struggle

The Meaning of Language … in the context of Killing, and Sin, and The Resurrection …

Hamachidori“, by Ryutaro Hirota, played by Tokyo Kosei Wind Orchestra & Kazumasa Watanabe, from the album “Konomichi―Favorite Japanese Melodies (Japanese Melody Series)” (2004)

Sunrise on The Last Day

I am writing these days about the consequences of misusing language, of imprecise argument, of discussions which are based on unconfirmed or unproven “facts” or even no facts at all but simply one of the “every right minded person knows this to be true” type of argument. This might be a bit of a rant but we’ll see how it goes.

I am thinking about the detachment of thinking and philosophy from reality such that “Truth” becomes “whatever we want it to be depending on what our emotions and thoughts and desires lead us into.

If we understood how we lead ourselves into delusion and sin by looking at our lives and our conduct through the lens of all the usual daily “wax on, wax off” of redirection and euphemism which we use to preserve our self-righteous belief in our own “goodness” we might make some progress along the narrow path to living in God’s will.

But lack of precision in language leads us into an ever deeper pit of double speak, innuendo and euphemism. We no longer say exactly what we mean and before long we forget what it is we are actually doing because we start thinking and acting in ways which are no longer connected to reality in any meaningful way. We transport ourselves to a reality of our own making in our own mind and no longer understand what we are doing or how it affects  everyone around us.

Unfortunately, “reality” isn’t rooted in our heads, in what we desire or in what we believe. In previous posts I have mentioned Venezuela as one of the Poster Boys of the inevitable outcomes of “Progressive” living and acting as if “subjective truth” were “reality”. Liberal Socialism is “Progressive Subjective Truth” in action. Here in Canada we are already dangerously far down this path, where even Canadian “Conservatives” are far to the left of American Democrats. Canadian Liberals and “National Democrats” are so far off the reality map as to be clinically delusional in their expectations and beliefs.

When we depart from Truth based on reality, we move into a “Brave New World” of ever expanding “subjective Truth”. Reality now becomes an ever changing landscape dependant on individual desires and thoughts.

If man himself is “the author of Truth” and it is subjective … that is to say “your Truth” may well be terminally different from “my Truth”, with potentially disastrous fall out for everyone, then absolutely any evil becomes possible and even acceptable depending on our personal power to influence. In a world of malleable truth our reality is limited only by our ability to force others to conform to our circle of influence.

This easily translates into public policy initiatives especially if one of the objectives of the policy initiators is to avoid the repercussions of accountability for the outcomes of those policy initiatives. Imprecise language leaves lots of loopholes for dodging silver bullets.

Thanks to subjective truth, and subjective thinking, Canada has, in one generation, moved from homosexuality and abortion being immoral and illegal practices, to general acceptance of homosexuality as being “normal” and OK, and to the widespread legal killing of innocent people because of their geographical location or state in life, currently running at about 150,000 people a day in our western “civilized” culture. I am not sure if that statistic is for the whole world, for Europe and North America or just for here in North America but it is still a scary number however you think about it.

This whole area of “thinking” is wrapped about with euphemism, innuendo and misdirection where all concepts of right and wrong are turned on their heads to aid the policy designers in pursuing their desired direction.

So, for starters, relating to “subjective Truth”, here is an open letter to a Canadian MP regarding the current effort underway on the part of the Canadian government to widen the net and expand the criteria for qualifying patients for the medical procedure known as medical assistance in dying (euphemistically known as MAID).

Basically, MAID is the process of qualifying (selecting) targeted patients to be killed off to relieve these targeted patients of the “burden” of their suffering, all the while presenting the case that this “choice” is the patient’s desire, rather than the Health department’s desire.

So here is the letter:


As a concerned constituent,

I am writing to give you direct feedback about the possibility of the criteria for medical assistance in dying being further expanded.

First, and this point needs to be explained clearly by all parties, since it is the most critical factor in this argument, is the irrefutable fact that there is not a single argument being used by the MAID camp, to expand the state’s ability, selection network of target victims, and “legal” right to kill selected citizens, which cannot be completely addressed by properly applied palliative care, up to and including medically induced coma.

What the published arguments by the MAID camp leave unstated, is the only argument not refuted by “palliative care and medically induced coma”. This unstated argument is the potential cost savings involved in the full implementation of MAID, thus enabling the shifting of budgetary resources to other health care programs going forward.

This curious omission of the “costs argument” flies in the face of government’s willingness to invoke the “Costs” argument in other budgetary areas.  I agree that $35,000 per man woman and child in Canada for health care in 2018, is likely unsustainable in the long run. Terminal end-of-life health care costs a lot of money for “only a few patients” and it would seem to be the best argument for implementing MAID.

The rest of this note fits the current narrative. I recognize that the specific purpose of this consultation is in response to the court ruling that struck down the “reasonably foreseeable death” criterion for MAID. However, this clause was added to the law when it was passed in 2016 to protect people with disabilities, including those with mental health concerns. The timing of this court ruling by the Quebec judiciary seems curiously coincidental but we will leave that question for another day.

Anyway, Doctors know that often persons with disabilities or with serious mental health concerns consider suicide rather than to face life with a physical or psychological limitation. But with love, a strong support network and proper medical care, many do change their minds and lead their lives with dignity and self-respect. People in this circumstances need to be offered assistance to live, not death. The current safeguards are completely inadequate. I ask you to consider the adoption of the Vulnerable Persons Standard:

I am also concerned that there is discussion about expanding the criteria for assisted suicide and euthanasia to allow children, those whose primary diagnosis is a mental health concern, and those who want advanced directives to qualify for MAID. How can we allow even more vulnerable groups to be put at risk when we don’t have adequate access to care across our country?

Thank you.


No answer to the above letter is expected nor has any answer been received. Why is that not a surprise? We, that is mankind, are extraordinarily skilled at dissembling and covering up our wrongs and our evil doing.

We have a huge vocabulary of code words and euphemisms to hide what our actions and conduct really are all about and their effect on our neighbours around us. I suspect that many of us go through life thinking “we’re pretty good, not like those other horrible people”, a lot like the parable of the Pharisee and the Publican.

Greta is angry with us …

Recall that the parable of the Pharisee and the Publican is a parable of Jesus that appears in the Gospel of Luke. In Luke 18:9-14, a self-righteous Pharisee, obsessed by his own virtue, his obvious superiority to those around him, his virtuous life and his good works, is contrasted with a tax collector, one of the ordinary folks, who humbly asks God for mercy.

This parable demonstrates the need to act and pray humbly in our daily lives, to see ourselves as we really are rather than to see the imagined evil motives behind the lives of others.

For example, I don’t suppose that teenage talking head Greta Thunberg ever had to keep a farm running all winter without oil but I can tell you that she and her backers are fundamentally divorced from our current winter reality in rural Alberta.

Well, she must be OK because the Wickedpedia loves her, and if one doesn’t think Greta has got powerful backers with an anti oil agenda there is a flavor of unreality in that thinking as well. Sigh …  so here is another point of view on that topic, just to give both sides some coverage.

George Soros 2012

These days, and perhaps for at least the last several thousand years, humility has been rather thin on the ground and pride reigns in many hearts. There is certain biblical precedent to the current objections to the hydrocarbon economy and, as it has always been, it is all about controlling the narrative.

Ancient Egypt got rolling by 3000 BC  and was really hitting its heights by the time Moses and the Jews departed around 1500 BC, and its likely that Pharaoh wasn’t the first God King to go down in flames, or in his case to drown in the sea, and go down into the flames.

But why? he just wanted to control the narrative, didn’t he?

God gave Egypt 2 thousand years to get their act together and they rose to the pinnacle of power in their world before they crashed and drowned in the Red Sea while refusing to acknowledge GOD and chasing Moses and Israel to kill them for delivering God’s message.

Then He gave Israel about 1500 years to rise to their pinnacle. 500 years after Moses King David got things going along nicely in Israel’s golden period. But within a thousand years they rejected God and killed His son who had been sent to teach them a better way. They were wiped out shortly after that disaster and scattered to the four winds by Rome in 70 AD.

Now He has given Western Christendom, the Gentiles of scripture, about 2000 years to rise to their pinnacle and it sure looks to me like we are looking at our own crash and burn epic right now.

Whose agenda are we really following, whose instructions and commandments? It doesn’t feel to me like God’s Will figures very largely in our world’s goals and agendas. The western world has rejected God and refused His divine Son in an orgy of self worship and self love, perversion and decadence.

Contrary to the (in)famous TELUS commercial, the future is definitely not friendly, and woe to anyone who openly disagrees with the path we are on.  Who will be the next chosen people once our corrupt society is dead and gone.


14 The beginning of the pride of man, is to fall off from God: 15 Because his heart is departed from him that made him: for pride is the beginning of all sin: he that holdeth it, shall be filled with maledictions, and it shall ruin him in the end. (Ecclesiastes 10:14–15/Sirach 10:14-15)


Ah yes, tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow creeps on this petty pace, to the last syllable of  time … nothing ever changes, it’s all pride, the mother of all sin.  It seems, judging by some of the comments, that I am not the only one dismayed by the semi-literacy and lack of precision in language surrounding us everywhere in the media and on our social networks. So let’s call a spade a spade, and let’s call sin what it is … SIN the action of evil in the world.

I have been reading a new book by Christine Watkins called “The Warning: Testimonies and Prophecies of the Illumination of Conscience“. This little book lines up precisely with where my head has been for a couple of years now. Here is a quote regarding sin, from that book:


What horrified me and left me shaking the most was seeing the nature of sin itself. It does nothing but destroy and is infinitely worse than poison. Poison can kill the body, which is temporal, but sin can kill the soul, which is eternal. Jesus revealed to me that every sin, large or small, is significant.

A little lie was more serious than I thought because Jesus looks at our hearts. The lie may seem small, but the deceit within us can be huge. Or with slander—casting another in a negative light, thinking it and speaking it can look the same in God’s eyes because God sees the seed of judgment in our hearts. The slander is simply an expression of it.

When Jesus said in Matthew 5: 27-28, “You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall not commit adultery.’ But I say to you, everyone who looks at a woman with lust has already committed adultery with her in his heart,” He meant exactly what He said.

God revealed to me how sin spreads like a malignant cancer. Just the simple act of treating one person negatively initiates a spider-web effect. If I yell at someone in the morning and put them in a bad mood, they take that with them into their day and spread it easily to others, who in turn, bring the anger home with them, and take it out on their loved ones, who bother their neighbors, and so on … and so on … and so on …

Like the many branches of an infinite and insidious tree, it expands from one small sprout. Every single sin multiplies this way, even those we think are hidden, affecting both the physical and the spiritual realms, travelling across generations, sometimes continents. Sin unveiled is a gruesome thing.

What happened next shocked me to my core. I was standing before Jesus, with no memory of how I had come back to the Church two years earlier and repented. The Lord of heaven and earth was hiding this from my awareness because He was about to let me fully experience what would have happened to me had I died in my sins. Jesus gave me my personal judgment. Immediately, I saw my sentence within His eyes. The verdict was hell for all eternity.

I was frozen, speechless, in overwhelming, silent terror. I knew I deserved it, and there was absolutely nothing I could do to stop it. The experience felt frightful beyond sheer horror. I couldn’t argue back. I couldn’t talk my way out of anything. I fell silent before the divine truth that justice demands. I was undergoing my personal judgment in miniature, and by the life I had lived, I had freely chosen my sentence: an eternal “fiery furnace, where there will be wailing and grinding of teeth (Matthew 13: 42 b).” Human language cannot convey the regret that seized me.

As Jesus took the scroll from the Father, I was also made to understand that this judgment, unique to each individual, is coming upon the world. Every person on the face of the Earth will experience their personal judgment, either while alive or at death, and every single sin will have to be accounted for.

What made the experience so scary for me, and what makes me so concerned for the world is that at death, there is no way to alter one’s sentence. There is no way to go back and change things, to correct the wrongs. It is absolute. For me, the door to heaven had locked with an iron deadbolt, and my fate was to be sealed forever.

Watkins, Christine. The Warning: Testimonies and Prophecies of the Illumination of Conscience. Location 1783-1834 Queen of Peace Media. Kindle Edition.


So I am continuing on to look at the Resurrection. As I remarked in a previous post, the gateway to Belief is flanked and supported by the two pillars of reality, the Incarnation and the Resurrection supporting the lintel of Faith. But even the transmission of divinely revealed Truth is derailed by academic argument about the meaning of words and the validity of arguments and statements based on those words.

Lack of precision in communications, that is in speaking and writing, makes the propagation of Truth difficult. When we divorce “Truth” from precision and reality and relegate it to being in our own mind, that is, what “Truth” mean “for us”, then we really destroy TRUTH.

Most of what I am going to relate here about my thoughts on the second pillar, the Resurrection, is drawing from the work of N.T. Wright in his huge book Resurrection Son of God V3: Christian Origins and the Question of God”.

The lack of precision in language contributes to the facility of denying the Incarnation, the Resurrection, and even the existence of God. If we don’t believe it, that God exists and cares about us, then we can walk any path and believe that literally anything is “Truth”.


He (Wright) writes: “In what sense, if any, can Jesus’ resurrection be spoken of as ‘historical’? Second, how did people in Jesus’ day, both Gentiles and Jews, think and speak about the dead and their future destiny? In particular, what if anything did the word ‘resurrection’ (anastasis and its cognates, and the verb egeiro and its cognates, in Greek, and qum and its cognates in Hebrew) mean within that spectrum of belief? 12 … As George Caird once pointed out, when a speaker declares ‘I’m mad about my flat’ it helps to know whether they are American (in which case they are angry about their puncture) or British (in which case they are enthusiastic about their living quarters).13 When the early Christians said ‘The Messiah was raised from the dead on the third day’, what might they have been heard to be saying? This may seem obvious to some readers, but it was by no means obvious, according to the evangelists, when Jesus said similar things to his followers, and a glance at contemporary literature will show that it remains far from obvious to many scholars today.14  …  As well as the question of meaning (what did this kind of talk mean at the time?) we must consider the question of derivation: what, if anything, did the Christian shaping of ideas and language about Easter owe to the wider context, both Jewish and non-Jewish? What was the way that the non-Jewish world of the first century looked at these two questions in mind; what was the way that the Jewish world looked at it.15 Let me then spell out somewhat more fully the brief, almost formulaic account given a moment ago of how the argument develops from there. … Granted the wide range of views about life after death in general and resurrection in particular, what did the early Christians believe on these topics, and how can we account for their beliefs?

This method recognizes that all knowledge of the past, as indeed of everything else, is mediated not only through sources but also through the perceptions, perceptions, and hence also the personalities, of the knowers. There is no such thing as detached objectivity.

To say, therefore, that we can investigate other historical claims in a neutral or objective fashion, but that with the resurrection an element of subjectivity inevitably creeps in, is to ignore the fact that all historical work consists of a dialogue between the historian, in community with other historians, and the source materials; and that at every point the historians’ own worldview-perspectives are inevitably involvedBut this does not mean that all knowledge collapses into mere subjectivity. There are ways of moving towards fair and true statements about the past.”

Wright, N. T.. Resurrection Son of God V3: Christian Origins and the Question of God (pp. 8-29). Fortress Press. Kindle Edition.


What I am doing here is trying to explain to myself, to reassure myself that my belief in, my Faith in Jesus Christ is justified … Jesus Christ was/is real, was/is Divine, was/is Man, was Incarnated as The God Man, and Resurrected after his death on the cross.

If any of these points could be proven wrong then I suppose that Christianity would be a sham, a lie, but so far, 2000 plus years of trying by all the usual suspects have failed to disprove any of the above points and they are left with denying the existence of GOD hence the new-found popularity of Atheism in our polite secular society.

“Red Dragonfly” by Kobudo, from the album “Ototabi”, (2013)

So, end of the post, sipping my coffee, enjoying a new creamer called “SuperFood Pumpkin Spice”, and it gives a nice flavourful coffee but I still add a few ounces of 36% cream to fatten it up. But what would coffee be without a little scripture?  Paul would have recognized our current Social/Political landscape … here is part of his letter to Timothy:


… But know this, that in the last days perilous times will come: For men will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, unloving, unforgiving, slanderers, without self-control, brutal, despisers of good, traitors, headstrong, haughty, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God, having a form of godliness but denying its power. …

Now as Jannes and Jambres resisted Moses, so do these also resist the truth: men of corrupt minds, disapproved concerning the faith; but they will progress no further, for their folly will be manifest to all, as theirs also was. But you have carefully followed my doctrine, manner of life, purpose, faith, longsuffering, love, perseverance, persecutions, afflictions, which happened to me at Antioch, at Iconium, at Lystra– what persecutions I endured.

And out of them all the Lord delivered me. Yes, and all who desire to live godly in Christ Jesus will suffer persecution. But evil men and impostors will grow worse and worse, deceiving and being deceived. (2 Ti 3:1-13)


Anyway, that’s enough fun for now. It is encouraging to know that there are other folks out there who see the current state of confusion in communication as problematic. I suspect that the “usual suspects” calling me a “pedant” are not really that sure what exactly “pedant” means anyway.

So for those who got this far, you must be amongst the blessed literate on this long journey. We understand that we have to look at our lives and our conduct without all the usual daily “wax on, wax off” of redirection and euphemism we use to preserve our belief in our own “goodness”.



Ahhh,  time for another stress free “nice conversation with my friends”. Who cares what the words mean anyway, they just sound so “pleasantly conversational”.