Life in a small town, The Inner Struggle

Ashes … the world ends … Fire or Ice …

Sunday, September 13, 2020 … sitting in the dark … listening to tunes … Ashes to Ashes … born in ashes … called in fire … forged in darkness … for the light of eternity … Quid Hoc Ad Aeternitatem.

“Therefore, my beloved, flee from idolatry. I speak as to wise men; you judge what I say. Is not the cup of blessing which we bless a sharing in the blood of Christ? Is not the bread which we break a sharing in the body of Christ? Since there is one bread, we who are many are one body; for we all partake of the one bread.

Look at the Israel according to the flesh; are not those who eat the sacrifices sharers in the altar? What do I mean then? That a thing sacrificed to idols is anything or that an idol is anything?

No, but I say that the things which the Gentiles sacrifice, they sacrifice to demons, and not to God; and I do not want you to become sharers in demons. You cannot drink the cup of the Lord and the cup of demons; you cannot partake of the table of the Lord and the table of demons. Or do we provoke the Lord to jealousy? We are not stronger than He, are we?” (1 Cor 1-: 14-22)

This is the greatest civilization ever built … or so we are assured by our betters … and yet … and yet …

We sacrifice to Moloch about 900,000 children a year as a mere “Health Care” procedure in our enlightened Progressive society here in North America and if there were more people in Canada we would certainly sacrifice more per capita than the good ole U.S. of A., just like our violent crime rate and our murder rate are higher per capita than the good ole U.S. of A.

And the few souls left in our churches are all masked up because … the High Priests of “Health Care” tell us we will “have more cases”?  Who’s left … listening to the Mass Readings?

How can anyone miss the significance of this, we sacrifice to demons, and not to God, and we become sharers in demons. Our culture of Progressive Brights, our culture of self love and death, our culture of COVID, our culture of masks, and deviance and Gaia worship, cannot drink of the cup of the Lord and the cup of demons, cannot partake of the table of the Lord and the table of demons.

And we cannot stand anyone who disagrees with our daily justification of perversion and murder. and every day millions of spirits shuffle off this mortal coil … are they good spirits … or are they unclean spirits?

Sirach 27:30–28:7
30 Resentment and anger, these are foul things too, and a sinner is a master at them both.
1 Whoever exacts vengeance will experience the vengeance of the Lord, who keeps strict account of sin. 2 Pardon your neighbour any wrongs done to you, and when you pray, your sins will be forgiven. 3 If anyone nurses anger against another, can one then demand compassion from the Lord? 4 Showing no pity for someone like oneself, can one then plead for one’s own sins?

5 Mere creature of flesh, yet cherishing resentment!-who will forgive one for sinning? 6 Remember the last things, and stop hating, corruption and death, and be faithful to the commandments. 7 Remember the commandments, and do not bear your fellow ill-will, remember the covenant of the Most High, and ignore the offence. (Sirach 27:30–28:7)

Romans 14:7-9
7 For none of us lives for himself and none of us dies for himself; 8 while we are alive, we are living for the Lord, and when we die, we die for the Lord: and so, alive or dead, we belong to the Lord. 9 It was for this purpose that Christ both died and came to life again: so that he might be Lord of both the dead and the living. (Romans 14:7-9)

Matthew 18:21-35
21 Then Peter went up to him and said, ‘Lord, how often must I forgive my brother if he wrongs me? As often as seven times?’ 22 Jesus answered, ‘Not seven, I tell you, but seventy-seven times.

23 ‘And so the kingdom of Heaven may be compared to a king who decided to settle his accounts with his servants. 24 When the reckoning began, they brought him a man who owed ten thousand talents; (a huge amount which could not be repaid in a lifetime)  25 he had no means of paying, so his master gave orders that he should be sold, together with his wife and children and all his possessions, to meet the debt. 26 At this, the servant threw himself down at his master’s feet, with the words, “Be patient with me and I will pay the whole sum.”

27 And the servant’s master felt so sorry for him that he let him go and cancelled the debt.

28 Now as this servant went out, he happened to meet a fellow-servant who owed him one hundred denarii  (a single day’s wage); and he seized him by the throat and began to throttle him, saying, “Pay what you owe me.” 29 His fellow-servant fell at his feet and appealed to him, saying, “Be patient with me and I will pay you.” 30 But the other would not agree; on the contrary, he had him thrown into prison till he should pay the debt.

31 His fellow-servants were deeply distressed when they saw what had happened, and they went to their master and reported the whole affair to him.

32 Then the master sent for the man and said to him, “You wicked servant, I cancelled all that debt of yours when you appealed to me. 33 Were you not bound, then, to have pity on your fellow-servant just as I had pity on you?” 34 And in his anger the master handed him over to the torturers till he should pay all his debt.

35 And that is how my heavenly Father will deal with you unless you each forgive your brother from your heart. (Matthew 18:21-35)

Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I’ve tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice. (Robert Frost)


Forgiveness …  Jesus, I trust in You …


Life is a training camp, a journey … and death is just the intermission … before the Graduation.

Life in a small town, The Inner Struggle

Hope & Fraternal Charity … pride and ranting and prancing …

Sacrament of Tears”, Adrian von Ziegler, from the album “Mortualia”, 2012.

150625-N-SN160-356 EVANSVILLE, Ind. (Jun, 25, 2015) The U.S. Navy Flight Demonstration Squadron, the Blue Angels, join their signature Delta formation with the Canadian Air Demonstration Squadron, the Snowbirds, for a photo shoot over Evansville, Ind. The Blue Angels are scheduled to perform at 68 demonstrations at 35 locations across the U.S. in 2015. (U.S. Navy photos by Mass Communication Specialist 1st Class Michael Lindsey/Released)

EVANSVILLE, Ind. (Jun, 25, 2015) The U.S. Navy Flight Demonstration Squadron, the Blue Angels, join their signature Delta formation with the Canadian Air Demonstration Squadron, the Snowbirds, for a photo shoot over Evansville, Ind.  (U.S. Navy photos by Mass Communication Specialist 1st Class Michael Lindsey/Released)

This is not a “Feel Good” post. This is more of a cranky, uncharitable, old man post, and its about 5000 words, so way too long for easy reading, but at least it’s a personal purge so I can relax and sleep. If you are looking for a snappy 1000 word  “Feel Good” post you will have to look somewhere else.

So the Snowbirds Air Demonstration Squadron are cleared for action again after a months long grounding due to an unexpected crash of one of their antique aircraft. Above is an inspiring image from 5 years ago when no one had an inkling that we would all willingly, at the command of our Progressive Overlords, and accompanied by the chattering chorus of their gibbering minions in the media, walk in lockstep into the metaphorical ovens of their COVID terrorism, and BLM, and ANTIFA, which inform our every action these days.

Love Trumps Hate …

All these new terrors are just so much more terrifying than all our old fears of “Global Warming“, “Climate Change“, islands of plastic garbage in the Pacific Ocean and all purpose Gaia worship. Now instead of sacrificing our economy to Gaia we willing sacrifice our entire way of life and our freedoms to the deadly “Casedemic“.

I am curious who can tell me just when was the last time anyone anywhere actually saw or heard reported any statistics dealing with “DEATH“, and “Actual Hospitalization” because of “Real Symptoms“. Anybody? Anybody?

Come ON class … probably 4 or 5 months at least since ALL the media and ALL the authorities and ALL the universities, and ALL the Social Media pundits just gave up on “DEATH” as the scare tactic of choice.  NOW the NEW WORLD ORDER refers only to “CASES”, and “OUTBREAKS”, and “HOTSPOTS”!

And all of these stats are based on a “test” for a “possible Virus” that is of questionable value at best, even when testing for bacteria – a much larger and easier identified target, and this notorious unreliability of the “TEST” has all been common knowledge in the medical and clinical research community for over 15 years now.

As usual, size matters, Bacteria are waaay larger than Viruses which have yet to be proven to actually exist since all research extent fails Cox’s tests. We haven’t even proven the existence of the critters we are blaming all this Casedemic on but we have no problem scaring the shit out of millions of ignorant people.

And the PCR test technique is designed to detect bits of genetic material from bacteria which are millions times larger than the as yet unproven and undetected “Viral cause” of COVID. The “COVID Virus” test is TOTALLY dependent on amplification and detection of amplicons.

Fossil Fools

And we haven’t even established any connection between the yet-to-be-found “Virus” and the “disease”.  But why would the general left-wing “feelings” crowd be interested in anything like facts and truth. It’s way smarter and easier and just more enjoyable to read Karen on Facebook and the rest of terrified control fanatics and then feel all warm and superior ranting about COVIDIOTS who won’t “Mask Up”.

So here is a primer from 18 years ago before the government realized that they could use this “test” to grow Fear uncertainty and Doubt in an easily panicked and lead population of low information voters. “Dammit All”! We have to defeat Trump somehow before Bernie and Bidden die on us, and since we can’t do it with brains we will stampede the herd into voting against the evil overlord Maximus Trumpicus.

He caused all this to just to make money, right, feely people? Better read this article soon before it joins the legion of deleted documentation shining a light on the “Fraud” being pushed on us all. Because that’s what is really going on here … intentional deception to secure unfair or unlawful gain, or to deprive a victim of a legal right.


From the US National Library of Medicine and the National Institute of Health we have extracted:  “… The application of PCR to clinical specimens has many potential pitfalls due to the susceptibility of PCR to inhibitors, contamination and experimental conditions. For instance, it is known that the sensitivity and specificity of a PCR assay is dependent on target genes, primer sequences, PCR techniques, DNA extraction procedures, and PCR product detection methods.

Even though there are many publications concerning basic protocols of a PCR assay, including DNA extraction and preparation as well as the amplification and detection of amplicons, PCR detection of bacteria in clinical specimens such as cerebrospinal fluid (CSF) has not yet been reviewed.”

“… In particular, a diagnosis based on detection of a few bacteria in clinical specimens by using PCR must be carefully evaluated technically as well as microbiologically.  …  

Since PCR is based on DNA amplification, false-positive or -negative outcomes may easily occur. …

Since clinical specimens have PCR inhibitors, such as hemin, which binds to Taq polymerase and inhibits its activity (), DNA purification is important to avoid such effects. In fact, inhibitors are detected frequently in CSF specimens (), and boiling of CSF is not sufficient for removal of inhibitors which affect the detection of microbes by PCR (). ….

The classical DNA extraction protocol is based on purification with organic solvents like phenol-chloroform, followed by precipitation with ethanol. The precipitates obtained from CSF containing only a few bacteria may contain too little material and may not be visible. Therefore, handling of these precipitates may require guesswork, particularly during the washing of the precipitates. Thus, it seems likely that the resulting yield of bacterial DNA from CSF with only a few bacteria may not be consistent. …

… Some commercially available extraction and purification kits based on a solid-phase purification protocol are listed in Table Table1.1. These kits eliminate not only guesswork but also labor-intensive phenol-chloroform extraction steps. However, there is only limited information regarding bacterial DNA isolation from clinical specimens, particularly CSF, with these commercial kits.


In fact, the developers of the test themselves in testifying before the Congress clearly stated that the “test” being used to identify “cases” could not actually be used for these purposes because of false positive rates as high as 80%.   So who benefits from all this terror and control, and all these “CASES“?  Well, just listen to the news people, it’s all being done to protect us from a deadly “case count”.  And who pays the WHO and all the other authorities?  They sure aren’t doing this out of the goodness of their heart, are they?

It is a virtual certainty, based on 60 years of empirical experience, that whenever every source of information and authority agree on something, anything, we can bet anything on that “something” or “anything” being dead wrong. And all this is only possible when there is no moral compass in the culture, when there is no way possible for John and Jane Doe to tell the difference between right and wrong between moral behaviour and immoral behaviour, when it all relative and it just depends on … well … something, you know what I mean?

David Warren

We have lost all sense of “sin” and everything is now reduced to “feelings” and it is all “the other’s” fault.  “Evil” has become “anyone who disagrees with me“, and I have to make sure I am part of the “in” crowd and we all know that I am now the pinnacle, the crowning glory of the universe, right?

David Warren has an interesting take on this phenomenon here.

The image above, of spectacular flight, is a tribute to virtues and abilities now lost to our civilization … courage, will power, determination, grit, hard work, self discipline, and sheer brain power … these virtues may yet return, … but not as long as the shrieking howler monkey tribes occupy the battleground.

These virtues, are all sadly lacking in most of our pink and brown and black and yellow monkey tribes these days, and we find ourselves wrapped in the mad-coat straight jacket of a utterly corrupt and immoral Progressive Socialist government bureaucracy which we can never change.

found on “Being Liberal” … Can’t you just feel the love … Golem loves you precious …

We have in fact, the Bipolar Progressives … the “Two Faces of Golem”, as it were: … on the one hand we have Smeagol, endearing and pathetic, just let us look at how stupid all we COVID deniers are. We just have to be “Handled” with care in order to be brought to the light.

But don’t lose sight of the other half, on the other hand, there is always “Golem” and he is one downright scary “Dude”, and he’s standing right behind you!  

With 1.7 million “Likes” … Be Afraid … Be Very Afraid .. I’d guess that pretty much defines conservatives, right? We are all just afraid and we don’t understand and it is better to just kill us while we are still babies, right? That’s where narrative goes.

So, imagine a universe where authority can be wrong. Sometimes, a person in authority can be mistaken. A person who believes a lie, and who repeats the lie, does not do so out of malicious intent! And yet, he is repeating a lie!

Sometimes people and authorities believe things that are later proven to be untrue and they act on those things with a clear conscience because it’s “for our own good”. If you forced these folks to take a lie detector test they would pass because they actually do not know it is a lie.

There are books, books written as recently as a few years years ago, books you can still find in the library, which include untruths. Did those writers lie to you? No, they’d told the truth, as they’d known it. But future generations discovered that their concept of the truth had been very limited, and knowledge is still advancing. And that is just the mild form of misinformation.

Dr. Jerry Pournelle, 2005

Authority is also often more interested in maintaining itself than determining the truth. A person(s) who clings to his/her authority – which may or may not be based on a known lie – is unlikely to want to do anything to weaken it. This reminds me of Pournelle’s iron law of bureaucracy: any bureaucratic organization there will be two kinds of people: those who work to further the actual goals of the organization, and those who work for the organization itself. Examples in education would be teachers who work and sacrifice to teach children, vs. union representatives who work to protect any teacher including the most incompetent. The Iron law states that in all cases, the second type of person will always gain control of the organization, and will always write the rules under which the organization functions.

I am also reminded of Santayana’s  “those who forget history are condemned to repeat it.” in the sense that the vaults of history are crammed full of “authorities” who viciously resisted any form of change when their beliefs were questioned, and in the end they turned out to be wrong, even dead wrong, but that didn’t stop them from making millions of people miserable, or even dead in support of their lies, in support of their power and greed.

I think we are up against the same sort of situation now when dealing with our health care system, our government, our social programs, the “religion” of climate change, “pandemic, virusphobia and so on and so forth. Government bureaucracies IN AND OF THEMSELVES are fatally cancerous. They just grow back, like cancer, no matter how much we cut out.

Carbon Free Canada … where’s your mask, Boy?

King Ralph made major surgery back in his day and completely eliminated government debt but now we are right back where he started, bigger and more bloated than ever before, and more in debt.

Progressive government is a cancer … It is in the NATURE of public bureaucracies. Government bureaucracies are always and everywhere inevitably fatal. They always kill the host because no economy in history has had a bottomless well of resources for them to take.

Yes, courage, will power, determination, grit, hard work, self discipline, responsibility and accountability, and, yes, sheer brain power, are essential factors in every successful civilization, and as Robert Heinlein once remarked:

“Throughout history, poverty is the normal condition of man. Advances which permit this norm to be exceeded—here and there, now and then—are the work of an extremely small minority, frequently despised, often condemned, and almost always opposed by all right-thinking people. Whenever this tiny minority is kept from creating, or (as sometimes happens) is driven out of a society, the people then slip back into abject poverty. “This is known as ‘bad luck’. ” – Robert A. Heinlein

He says it so much more elegantly than I, in my grey tribe arrogance, “Viva Grey Tribe!”

You don’t even get a hand launched glider into the air on “feelings” and “emotion” and “fairness”, but it’s plenty good enough for launching Fear, Uncertainty, and Doubt, Hatred and Corruption, Rapine and Murder.

I mean who the Hell cares about a few more innocent victims when we murder almost a million children a year in North America and pretend it’s all about “Rights” and “Health Care”.

And all of this evil rushing forward amidst a crashing continuous media drumbeat of “feelings” and “emotion” and “fairness”, where literally everything from COVID to rioters killing and burning and looting is the fault of the Police and Trump. Yes! Boy Justin walks on water but Trump is evil, and anyone who doesn’t wear a facemask is a “Covidiot”, and anyone who believes in God is a primitive superstitious peasant.

Yes, “feelings” and “emotion” and “fairness” work very well to launch our current reign of terror, of BLM and ANTIFA and our daily soup of terror and violence and (Evil Overlord Laugh) BWAHA HA HA HAAA our DEADLY Case-demic. It’s really all about “Cases” not deaths, and its enforced by “Social Shaming” … but what about the people who don’t use Facebook???? Oh My …

Who needs a real “killer disease” when we can make up something that “the proles”, the “low information voters”,  will believe totally and wear their little “Slave Masks” and shame the thinking public into going along with everything because of “Social Pressure”, ALL POWER TO THE INVINCIBLE SOCIAL MEDIA MACHINE.


Thugs rampage in the streets of Portland, Chicago, Seattle, smashing and setting fires and looting, for joy and profit, and they are called, on television, “protestors.”” and  … “We find a media that have inverted and given a false account of virtually every issue that arises in our politics and law, from the phony “Russian conspiracy” to abortion, transgenderism, and of course – gasp – “climate change.

The passion over the climate comes from people who have long rejected the notion of moral truth, and taken “the environment” as their religion and as their substitute source for moral righteousness.  This is in part a new paganism with a worship of the earth.  If it shows a lingering concern for human lives, they are the lives threatened by rising waters in the future.

Let’s just kill all those stupid COVIDIOTS while they are still babies … it’s just so much simpler.

But then the question naturally arises:  Why such a concern for humans not yet living, when set against the 800,000 living beings destroyed every year in this country (U.S.A.) in abortions?  And yet, the party that now declares itself the party of “light” and hope, against the darkness of the current president and his administration, finds no darkness in its willingness to defend and promote these killings as a deep “right,” which can brook not the slightest restraint.

As Orwell would have it, “war is peace” and “peace is war.”  Everything is inverted.”


But this is the face of true evil.  The day that the world of ISIS and BLM and ANTIFA (is ISIS still a thing with the media?) and the rest of the shrieking screaming, drooling, Pink Tribe Progressives can put together something even remotely like the Air Demonstration Squadrons we see in my opening picture, or even develop the technology to record a picture like this, then, and only then, will they have joined productive human civilization, ready for the stars. In the meantime it’s all destroy and kill and burn and terrorize, cut them up for parts, and O, don’t forget “feelings”.

Children of Dark or Children of Light? We choose …

Is it not even more terrifying than “Death by Red Bat Flu” to realize that these very screaming howler monkey tribes who believe that 800,000 child murders are a “right” and a “Health Care” issue, are the ones now responsible for implementation and enforcement of our new religion of Masks. They handle all the research, all the results, all the pronouncements, all the information, all the “Proof”, and all the social engineering directed at shaming the actual thinking public into complying with the latest sponsored idiocy.

It is desperately sad to observe that the the old saw often thrown my way over the years in discussions, about being too “black and white” was never truer than now. There are really only two categories of humans … black or white,  darkness or light,  children of GOD or children of Satan.  And the children of GOD are ordered by Christ, our True Master, to love those children of Satan, to love our enemies. And make no  mistake, that is what they are, the earthly manifestation of the Enemy in all his insidious evil.

I hope we can get off the planet before it is destroyed under us by those legions of losers.  Or … alternatively, I hope that at least we, the Remnant, manage to set up independent republics here and there where numbers warrant, our own little Benedict Option with easily defended borders where everyone is welcome.

BUT of course, the iron clad criterion for citizenship is:

#1: Prima Fascia evidence of real life Service and Sacrifice (eg. multi-tour military service with honourable discharge or equivalent non military service – equivalency to be determined by a panel of expert “citizens” and no one else)

#2: The criterion for eligibility for candidacy for political service is “citizenship” and candidate acceptability determined on a scale relating brain power and willingness to work and accept basic subsidiarity and accountability in a hierarchy (no free rides ’cause you’re smart and/or good looking and/or related to someone and/or are a political hack, and so on and so forth). Wanting the position is an automatic fail. Only one position, one term,  per person, per lifetime. No exceptions.

#3: No person regardless of sex, creed, parentage, wealth, or belief system gets an exemption for any reason from #1 and #2. No person covered in #3 gets any say whatsoever in how the republic is run or what kind of programs are offered. Folks covered by #3 get normal respect for human life as normal human beings  and as they have been recognized for, Oh … several thousand years … Natural Law is the foundation of civil law in this republic.

Albertastan Border Security detail…

Any pink tribe emoticons who find they don’t like this setup, or objects to any of the above or decides he or she or it wants his or her or it’s “rights” and “privileges” as our current society recognized same gets an escorted free ride to the nearest border crossing, 1 litre of water, a hamburger, a map showing how to get to the nearest “other” pink tribe place and an solid understanding that if they are still in sight in an hour they will be shot and left for the coyotes so at least some critter will benefit from their carbon footprint.  Well, maybe not shot, just … well, maybe paint balled until they are out of sight.

Now, In thinking about this visceral, rather childish, unloving, uncharitable jingoism which I have just indulged in, I am remembering a Catholic priest friend whom I respect greatly who taught me much. He reminded me that Dorothy Day said something like “How we feel about the least likeable people we know is how we feel about God”. Catholics believe that Jesus died for ALL men, even those we most dislike and despise. If one fails at this test one is failing to follow Christ’s orders… just gotta get up again and keep trying.

Just feel the love …

He (Jesus) was absolutely serious about “Love each other as I have loved you” That is undeniable, but Oh – So – Hard to put into practice in every day life. And the undeniable fact that everything the 90%’ers take for granted was developed by the 10%’ers for their own purposes doesn’t make “loving each other as I have loved you” any easier. I have a huge stumbling block “Loving” those murderin’ savages “as Jesus loves me”.

The actuality and the potential of the mostly reviled and unsung “Grey Tribe” in our society goes unremarked day to day even as they maintain and develop all that makes our modern riches possible and usable. We depend upon them all, utterly, and daily.

And just as an example in passing, who among us, how many among us, knows (or even cares) about a project such as “New Horizons”. Here is more info about this wonderful event and New Horizons.

The Stick Prepares to Jump … I miss ya Dad

Now, I know I am a grey tribe geek. And at times I am an arrogant prick. That’s my curse, my thorn, as Paul put it. I daily live in a reality neither perceived nor appreciated by the majority of those I know, mostly love, and interact with on a daily basis. I have lived more or less comfortably with this hierarchy of ability and perception for all my thinking life, that is, from about 10 or 12 years old on. This often brought me into “differences of opinions with others. My sister sometimes calls me an A..hole … I reply “A man should stick to what he is good at”.

By the time I was about 16 I had learned, with the help of strong “encouragement” from a strict and powerful father, who WAS still in the family and definitely WAS the head of the family, that I had to learn to “play nice” with others, and that regular folks really don’t like having the error of their ways, their own “issues and perceptions” pointed out to them, as when I would tell my father that he was wrong “because …”.

Good Days …

One of his parting bits of advice to me when I left home to join the military at a tender age was “Always remember son, you will have good days and bad days, but,  if you have more than one Ass-hole in your life, it is probably you!

Behave yourself and pay close attention to Sergeants”.  While I often ignored much of my dad’s advice at times, that one stuck with me and has saved my life many times. Another useful bit of advice was “never give up, never give up, never give up”. I miss ya Dad.

Bad Days …

I have had a mostly happy life with my “lower deck mates” regardless of their abilities and shortcomings and over the years have gradually become aware of how I, and we, must appear to our Commander in Chief and his Son. He made us as we are with all our various talents and abilities as well as our lack thereof and our failings.

Looking at all things visible and apparent to me, and the observed state of society these days is seems that being able to think is probably not the only talent that matters, although I believe it is an essential ingredient of any successful society.

I suggest that “thinking” without “self sacrifice and love” is even worse than not thinking at all. Not thinking at all is probably the most common human state these days and has most likely been the common state of most of mankind for all of history. We can see real time evidence of what that gets us in ISIS land and BLM land, and ANTIFA land, these days in full brutal living colour.

Imagine a world where literally every media experience you have is the result of someone putting their magical slant on how they would like things to be.  You don’t really have to imagine it, because that is what our daily lives are made up of here in the west. Pink reality is an accidental side-effect of the grey search for knowledge.

Let’s think for a moment about this web page here. Not just the information and images on the web site, but the fact that the website exists at all and is easily accessible by millions of viewers at the click of a button. WOW!  nh-pluto_charon_color_finalThis image was not dreamed up by some Hollywood graphic artist at the request of his producer or director and realized on his computer. Literally every single aspect about this page, both the contents and it’s accessibility are the direct result of some grey tribe experiment, mostly for purposes having nothing to do with this web page.

All that pink tribe stuff from Hollywood, which we call entertainment, is possible because a large amount of grey tribe stuff was developed to send an observation tool to this location in space and send back information about what is there on the way past to some still further location in space to send still more information back about what is really there and so on and so on … now taking some five hours transmission time. For scale realize that our sun is about 8 minutes transmission time away. 

I spent almost 8 years as a ship’s radioman in the 70’s and I know a bit about radio. Radio waves and light waves travel at the same speed. We used to consider it a long connection working Halifax from Gibraltar on CW (Morse Code for you noobs). These images above and at the site weren’t faked up in some studio but rather were built up from a bit-stream of data travelling at 186,287 miles per second.  The tech developed to do this work accidentally gave us Pandora and all the other Feelings fantasy that so many mistake for reality.

TRIVIA QUESTION:  How fast does light travel from the Sun to each of the planets?

Light travels at a speed of 299,792 kilometres per second; 186,287 miles per second. It takes 499.0 seconds for light to travel from the Sun to the Earth, a distance called 1 Astronomical Unit. below I list the light travel times from the Sun to each planet:

Planet    Distance in AU            Travel time
Mercury   0.387        193.0 seconds   or    3.2 minutes
Venus     0.723        360.0 seconds   or    6.0 minutes
Earth     1.000        499.0 seconds   or    8.3 minutes
Mars      1.523        759.9 seconds   or   12.6 minutes
Jupiter   5.203       2595.0 seconds   or   43.2 minutes
Saturn    9.538       4759.0 seconds   or   79.3 minutes
Uranus   19.819       9575.0 seconds   or  159.6 minutes
Neptune  30.058      14998.0 seconds   or    4.1 hours
Pluto    39.44       19680.0 seconds   or    5.5 hours

And all these tools and everything that supports them has to be invented first and developed into a prototype and then turned into a production model and so on just so the grey tribe can conduct their experiment. And the rest is just fallout.

The pink tribe entertainers see an opportunity in these tools developed by grey tribe folks for their experiment. They see an opportunity to produce a product which other pink tribe types will enjoy watching and using and will pay good tax-payers money for the privilege because the experience reinforces their magical thinking.

Because any time one is using something that one does not understand for whatever reason for any purpose that person is indulging in the use of “magic”.  And just like for Harry Potter, there is a cost for everything, but especially for the use of magic. Always remember that we are standing on many shoulders without which we are simply groveling in the mud and the blood and the beer.

The grey tribe does what they do, “to boldly go where no-one has gone before” to borrow a pink tribe fantasy phrase, for the sheer joy of learning and exploring the unknown, to confirm their predictions and expectations or to show where they are off the mark. Supporting and developing all of civilization is just something they do incidentally, on the side as it were, so they can continue to do what really interests them.

The grey tribe types understand that they are searching for the pig, not the lipstick on the pig.  They understand that the pig has some semblance of reality, measurable and provable, and they can build upon what they learn in order better describe the pig, to reach ever more rarefied heights of knowledge and produce still more stuff which trickles down to the pink tribe masses who believe that the lipstick IS reality.

And yet … we once had …

Ralph Vaughan Williams, the Lark Ascending, 1921

before the “arts” were subordinated to a darker power …   and David Warren puts an interesting spin on the Horizon event here.

So it gives me pause to realize that I am seriously expected to love these pink tribe folks as Jesus loved me. He created the pig and the lipstick and everything else from just … well … nothing.  And He had to create “nothing” first because He was everything. That kind of love is truly something awesome … truly beyond human comprehension.  Kinda puts all our pride and ranting and prancing around in perspective.  Dust to dust and all that.



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Disclaimer for the nit pickers: “We take pride in being incomplete, incorrect, inconsistent, and unfair. We do all of them deliberately”.


Life in a small town, The Inner Struggle

Everywhere in Chains … Hoax or Fraud?

The Return Of The King, Howard Shore

A Two Coffee Morning, courtesy of “Photo Electric Synergy” another Canadian Facebook site.

I have been thinking about just what it is that distinguishes slaves from masters. The slavery of the progressive revolution is not exactly like Roman slavery, or Greek slavery, or southern cotton plantation slavery, or even modern Islamic slavery.  It seems a common contemporary view that slavery is something, a status or state in life, which is forced upon unwilling victims, who are definitely not us.

“Traditional” slavery is an attempt to dehumanize people and treat them as domesticated consumable assets like beasts of burden such as horses, cattle, oxen, etc. Slaves are forced to work against their will, using violence or the threat of it, with no pay.

At the simplest level, slavery produces a continuous state of conflict between the slave and the master. The master forcing or coercing the slave to perform a service or function for the master from which the master derives material reward.  Like beasts of burden, slaves are treated as commodity that can be bought and sold, and disposed of when there is no further utility to be had.

In some societies and eras, such as 18th and 19th century North America, the commodity value of slaves increased dramatically. At other times and places, such as today, the commodity value of slaves is minimal; they can’t be sold for much and are simply considered “disposable people”, or disposable assets like packaging or raw materials.

The Mark of The Slave …

Another characteristic of slavery from ancient Babylonia, Greece, and Rome through the early 20th century to the modern 21st, is the masters attempt to physically distinguish slaves from free people. Most instances of slavery were and are not based on the concept of race. We see this in the ancient world, as well as in 20th century state slavery in Germany and Russia, and modern slavery. When masters could not easily identify slaves as such, they branded them, shaved their heads, made them wear special  clothing or badges, or used some other physically distinguishing characteristic to “mark” them as slaves, including such things as where they live and how they travel and how they are permitted to behave “Socially”.

Perhaps a more inclusive definition of slavery might be that a master has autonomy and free will and a slave has neither. Notice also that while we commonly associate “slavery” with a state in life which is forced upon unwilling victims, it is in fact much more common for “slaves” to voluntarily submit themselves to this status because it is “easier” or perhaps the only concept they have of “normal life”, as we see today for the vast majority or workers in North America and Europe and China, and all the little “Stans”, in fact pretty much everywhere you see socialism, progressivism and totalitarianism as the culture.

It doesn’t seem to much matter whether slavery is forced upon a person, as in the case of Islamic sex slaves, or one submits oneself to the strictures as a minimum wage, hand to mouth labourer, of any sort, be it a sex worker, a burger flipper or an office cube drone. One way of looking at all “work” is that we sell ourselves, our energy, time, and talent, on a daily basis for some kind of return. That return may be as great as having power over many other slaves, or as little as the comfort of believing that we are part of the “IN” group. As in ancient slave societies the higher the skill and talent of the slave the higher the position and reward. The lower the skill  and talent the lower the position and the less value attached to that person.

One way of looking at all “work” is that we sell ourselves, our energy, time, and talent, on a monthly, weekly, daily or even hourly basis for some kind of return, either simply for a place to live and bread to eat or for more if our value added is somewhat higher. Even as in ancient slave societies the higher the skill and talent of the slave the higher the position and reward. The lower the skill  and talent the lower the position and the less value attached to that person. At the lower end, whether one is a cube serf or a street peddler or hooker or drug pusher, you find the disposable people, the throw-aways and outcasts, our western society’s “Untouchables” or “Barukamin”. Slavery is a state of mind.


Slave Minister …

The highest position slaves ever attained was that of slave minister… A few slaves even rose to be monarchs, such as the slaves who became sultans and founded dynasties in Islām.

At a level lower than that of slave ministers were other slaves, such as those in the Roman Empire, the Central Asian Samanid domains, Ch’ing China, and elsewhere, who worked in government offices and administered provinces.

The stereotype that slaves were careless and could only be trusted to do the crudest forms of manual labor was disproved countless times in societies that had different expectations and proper incentives.”
The sociology of slavery: Slave occupations”  Encyclopaedia Britannica


George Soros and Justin Trudeau, Davos, Switzerland. 2016 … check the attentive body language … the “Master’s Voice” don’t cha think?

There are a very limited number of “Masters” in our “New World Order”, our “One World” future.  Even today we see that as high as one may have risen in today’s society, up to and even including Ministers and Deputy Ministers and Directors and Executives of all shades and quality, all have become slaves to something, we all have our Masters because we value the things of this world. The more one has, the higher one has risen, the more they have to loose and they more they become slaves, out of fear of that loss. And the love passes up and down the food chain in proportion to our attachment to the rewards of this world.

Up close and personal we are seeing our Prime Minister and all the hierarchy of bureaucrats and followers slavishly following through on promises to their “Masters and Mistresses”, who granted them office, appointment, and the keys to the treasury, with the expressed expectation of being duly rewarded  for such favours with the obedience of the slaves.

No surprise that we are become as slaves to our possessions, our passions, our bad habits, our addictions, drugs, alcohol, sex, our desires both open and secret. We are slaves to our fears, fears of loss of possessions, status, influence, beauty, friends, respect, health, power, and so on endlessly. Anything, or any person, that has the power to influence our life and our actions, what we say and what we do, that can force us to do and say that which we would rather not,  is just one more slave chain.

So, as our title asks: “Fraud or Hoax?”  From the “Great and Powerful Oz”, the “Wickedpedia”, we have: “In law, fraud is intentional deception to secure unfair or unlawful gain, or to deprive a victim of a legal right. Fraud can violate civil law (i.e., a fraud victim may sue the fraud perpetrator to avoid the fraud or recover monetary compensation), a criminal law (i.e., a fraud perpetrator may be prosecuted and imprisoned by governmental authorities), or it may cause no loss of money, property or legal right but still be an element of another civil or criminal wrong.

The purpose of fraud may be monetary gain or other benefits, for example by obtaining a passport, travel document, or driver’s license, or mortgage fraud, where the perpetrator may attempt to qualify for a mortgage by way of false statements. A hoax is a distinct concept that involves deliberate deception without the intention of gain or of materially damaging or depriving a victim.

In common law jurisdictions, as a civil wrong, fraud is a tort. While the precise definitions and requirements of proof vary among jurisdictions, the requisite elements of fraud as a tort generally are the intentional misrepresentation or concealment of an important fact upon which the victim is meant to rely, and in fact does rely, to the harm of the victim.[3] Proving fraud in a court of law is often said to be difficult as the intention to defraud is the key element in question.

A security guard, wearing a protective facemask to protect against the COVID-19 novel coronavirus, browses his mobile phone as he secures the entrance of a nearly empty shopping mall in Beijing on February 27, 2020. – The novel coronavirus has spread to more than 25 countries since it emerged in December 2019 and is causing mounting alarm due to new outbreaks in Europe, the Middle East and Asia. (Photo by Nicolas ASFOURI / AFP) (Photo by NICOLAS ASFOURI/AFP via Getty Images)

As such, proving fraud comes with a “greater evidentiary burden than other civil claims.” This difficulty is exacerbated by the fact that some jurisdictions require the victim to prove fraud by clear and convincing evidence.

The remedies for fraud may include rescission (i.e., reversal) of a fraudulently obtained agreement or transaction, the recovery of a monetary award to compensate for the harm caused, punitive damages to punish or deter the misconduct, and possibly others. In cases of a fraudulently induced contract, fraud may serve as a defense in a civil action for breach of contract or specific performance of contract. Similarly, fraud may serve as a basis for a court to invoke its equitable jurisdiction.”


So how are we to understand the “Great Red Bat Flu Pandemic of 2020“.  Notice that the drumbeat has changed from beating about hundreds of thousands of deaths and millions of hospital admissions, to simply “New Cases”. “New Cases” is the latest mutation of the Fear Uncertainty and Doubt with which our Slave Ministers are whipping us into compliance with surrendering our civil rights, “behaving” ourselves, and obediently preparing for “The Second Wave”.

Ultimately, when the fraud is perpetrated by the very authorities who have the duty to protect their charges from fraud, there is no recourse for the victims. In some cases this fraud is so successful that the victims do not even know that a crime has taken place and they have voluntarily given up their freedom to the fraudsters because of fear.

The only freedom lies with having nothing to loose. Freedom lies only in understanding that this whole mad rat race is just one more training mission, one more drill, on the way to real life. We find it impossible to be our authentic selves as long as we hang on to “this world”. We cannot “Win” in this world, caring about the “Things of This World”. We are strangers in a strange land, pilgrims returning to our true home. We must stand for Truth and not loose sight of our spiritual reality in spite of the hurricane of corruption and denial surrounding us.



The Broken Blade …

Aragorn: Stand your ground, stand your ground! Sons of Gondor, of Rohan, my brothers! I see in your eyes, the same fear that would take the heart of me.

A day may come, when the courage of men fails, when we forsake our friends, and break all bonds of fellowship, but it is not this day. An hour of wolves, and shattered shields when the age of men comes crashing down!

But it is not this day! This day we fight! For all that you hold dear, on this good earth, I bid you stand, men of the west!

The Inner Struggle

Looking in the Mirror … 2020 Vision …

Today is +20 and cloudy … is this a weird summer or what?  A week ago it was +10, pouring rain and howling a gale enough to blow roofs off and now it’s back to “normal” weather … what ever that means, well maybe that’s over the top, but it rather does focus the mind on the fact that we have very little control over all the things around us that matter and any control we think we have is only one crisis away from being lost.

Stephen Covey 2010 …

So continuing on from my “Sins of The Tongue” post last week, so many of my posts over the years have been whining about things that I perceived to be wrong with the world and our culture. What can we do about it? Frankly, very little. This is obvious at an instinctual level but was articulated by Dr. Stephen R. Covey in his analysis of our circle of control vs our circle of concern.

In short, he posits that normally we have a much larger circle of concern than circle of control and hence are worried about things in the larger sphere over which we have no control and this lack of control and the anxiety thus created causes all kinds of problems for us.

To find balance and peace we have to discover that place (head space) where our circle of concern matches our circle of control. So we can’t fix the world. So what?  We can fix ourselves. Lets start with fixing ourselves, that is well within our circle of control. We venture into perilous waters when we fail to master ourselves.

Being ruled by our passions results in all kinds of trouble and difficulty. So that path which falls within our circle of control and which should fall within our circle of concern is to conquer oneself and regulate one’s life without determining or directing oneself  through any tendency that is disordered or perverted.

We have been created. Notwithstanding all the fairy tales about primordial slime and chance conjunction of amino acids and lightening strikes and so on and so forth there has never been one wit of actual Empirical Evidence, that is to say the information received by means of the senses, particularly by observation and documentation of patterns and behavior through experimentation, to support that “story”. It is all conjecture and speculation, and it stems entirely from man’s desire to be the Supreme Being (Actual) and answerable to no one, to remove that highest authority standing in his way of doing and thinking whatever he wants.

Even Darwin, the formulator of the theory of evolution by natural selection, in 1859,  never dreamed or intended for his “theory” to become a “quasi factoid”, the foundation of and justification for the narrative denying of the existence God, any more than the developer of the “COVID Virus test” currently being used by “authorities” to test for COVID believed that his test could be used for that purpose. In fact he denied that it could be used for that purpose in testimony before congress.  It’s really all about changing the focus of where “authority” lies … denial of a higher authority than our current crop of government and business masters. and always, always, always beating the drum of fear uncertainty and doubt to reinforce the whip hand of the masters.

All these unproven “theories” have morphed into “Every right minded person knows this to be true”, just ask Karen on Facebook.

St. Thomas Aquinas

In the rest of this post I have paraphrased from sources (I think) which I must have read long ago because I can find no reference to this information anywhere else. I think I first wrote about this back in 2015 and the Wayback Machine has returned no idea of where I got it, but it has a flavour of Thomas Aquinas. Nevertheless, here it is:


We have been created to praise, reverence, and serve God our Lord, and by this means to save our immortal soul. And all the other things on the face of the earth are created for man, that they may help him in prosecuting the end for which he is created. From this it follows that man is to use them in as much as they help him on to his end, and ought to rid himself of them in so far as they hinder him from achieving it.

For this it is necessary to make ourselves indifferent to all created things in all that is allowed to the choice of our free will and is not prohibited to it; so that, on our part, we do not seek health rather than sickness, riches rather than poverty, honour rather than dishonour, long rather than short life, and so in all the rest. We should constrain ourselves in desiring and choosing only what is most conducive for us to the end for which we are created. We strive to become inured to the desires for material goods and pleasures such that they do not obscure or interfere with the path to self control.

So in examining the ways in which one can go wrong, misbehave or actively do evil it is convenient to appreciate the concept of mortal and venial sin (Big sins and Little sins). As in the physical world where there are mortal dangers which can and will kill us, and lesser or venial dangers which can injure us and make us sick, so too in the spiritual and personal world of sin there are mortal sins and venial.

A serious, grave or mortal sin is the knowing and wilful violation of God’s law in a serious matter, for example, idolatry, adultery, murder, slander. These are all things gravely contrary to the love we owe God and, because of Him, our neighbour. We know these are wrong and serious and we know they are a violation of both God’s law and of the natural law which stems from God and is know by all beings. 

it is also obvious that we can sin by thought, word and deed. To purify oneself I presuppose that there are three kinds of thoughts in me: that is, one my own, which springs from my mere liberty and will; and two others, which come from without, one from the good spirit, and the other from the bad. 

Now it appears that there are two ways to obtain merit in the bad thought(s) which comes from without, namely: Firstly, a thought of committing a mortal sin, which thought I resist immediately and it remains conquered. Secondly, when that same bad thought comes to me and I resist it, and it returns to me again and again, and I always resist, until it is conquered. This second way is more meritorious than the first. A venial sin is committed when the same thought comes of sinning mortally and one gives ear to it, making some little delay, or receiving some sensual pleasure, or when there is some negligence in rejecting such thought.

There are two ways of sinning mortally. Firstly, when one gives consent to the bad thought, to act afterwards as he has consented, or to put it in act if he could, and secondly, when that sin is put into act. This is a greater sin for three reasons: first, because of the greater time; second, because of the greater intensity; third, because of the greater harm to the two persons.

But what about sinning in word, that is “Sins of the Tongue”? Obviously, there are many, many ways to sin by word. One must not swear, either by Creator or creature (that is to misuse an oath when overwrought or angry), if it be not with truth,necessity and reverence. By necessity I mean, not when any truth whatever is affirmed with oath, but when it is of some importance for the good of the soul, or the body, or for temporal goods. By reverence I mean when, in naming the Creator and Lord, one acts with consideration, so as to render Him the honour and reverence due.

It is to be noted that, though in an idle oath one sins more when he swears by the Creator (as in anything created on earth – that is animals, people, or material phenomena) than by the creature, it is more difficult to swear in the right way with truth, necessity and reverence by the creature than by the Creator, for the following reasons.

Firstly, when we want to swear by some creature, wanting to name the creature does not make us so attentive or circumspect as to telling the truth, or as to affirming it with necessity, as would wanting to name the Lord and Creator of all things. Secondly, in swearing by the creature it is not so easy to show reverence and respect to the Creator, as in swearing and naming the same Creator and Lord, because wanting to name God our Lord brings with it more respect and reverence than wanting to name the created thing. Therefore swearing by the creature is more allowable to the perfect (the well developed and disciplined mind) than to the imperfect (the passionate and undisciplined mind) , because the perfect, through continued contemplation and enlightenment of intellect, consider,meditate and contemplate more that God our Lord is in every creature, according to His own essence, presence and power, and so in swearing by the creature they are more apt and prepared than the imperfect to show respect and reverence to their Creator and Lord. Thirdly, in continually swearing by the creature, idolatry is to be more feared in the imperfect than in the perfect.

What about habits and patterns of speech?  Consider how one must not speak an idle word. By idle word I mean one which does not benefit either me or another, and is not directed to that intention. Hence words spoken for any useful purpose, or meant to profit one’s own or another person’s  soul, the body or temporal goods, are never idle, not even if one were to speak of something foreign to one’s state of life, as, for instance, if a religious speaks of wars or articles of trade. But  in all that is said there is merit in directing well, and sin in directing badly, or in speaking idly. Nothing must be said to injure another person’s character or to find fault, because if I reveal a mortal sin that is not public, I sin mortally; if a venial sin, venially; and if a defect, I show a defect of my own.

But if the intention is right, in two ways one can speak of the sin or fault of another. Firstly: When the sin is public, as in the case of a public prostitute, and of a sentence given in judgment, or of a public error which is infecting the souls with whom one comes in contact. Secondly: When the hidden sin is revealed to some person that he may help to raise him who is in sin — supposing, however, that he has some probable conjectures or grounds for thinking that he will be able to help him.

So we come to sinning by act or deed. Taking together the Ten Commandments, natural law, the precepts of the Church and the recommendations of superiors, every act done against any of these authorities is, according to its greater or less nature, a greater or a lesser sin.  Our acts are an example. One commits no little sin in being the cause of others acting contrary to the authorities.

So what is a method for “looking into the mirror” and making a general examination of our conduct, words and thoughts? It is contained  in five points.

  • First,  to give thanks to God our Lord for the benefits we have received.
  • Secondly, to ask for the grace to know our sins and cast them out.
  • Thirdly, to ask an account of our soul (to remember our conduct) from the hour that we rose up to the present, examining hour by hour, or period by period: and first as to thoughts, and then as to words, and then as to acts, in the same order mentioned above.
  • Fourthly, to ask pardon of God our Lord for the faults.
  • Fifthly and finally, to firmly resolve to amend one’s ways with God’s help.


Look into the mirror and consider the five steps as many times a day as seems necessary to facilitate remembering one’s conduct, perhaps at every meal and break at first when getting used to this pattern. Thus do we examine our life.

I’ve been fascinated by Socrates’ bold statement that “The unexamined life is not worth living.”  He doesn’t fool around, no “nuances” for Socrates. He doesn’t say that the unexamined life is “less meaningful than it could be” or “one of many possible responses to human existence.” He simply and clearly says it’s not even worth living.  Why does he make such strong, unequivocal statement?  Socrates believed that the purpose of human life was personal and spiritual growth.

We are unable to grow toward greater understanding of our true nature unless we take the time to examine and reflect upon our life. As another philosopher, Santayana, observed, “He who does not remember the past is condemned to repeat it.”




Sonrise …





The Inner Struggle

Sins Of The Tongue … and Tall Poppies …

Big wind storm a few days ago, hit a collection of communities in our area, sustained winds winds over 60 miles an hour, higher in the gusts. Grain bins toppled, the bank across the street lost it’s whole roof, many large trees ripped up or just snapped off, communications towers broken, and one building in our town collapsed completely. Fortunately the collapsed building was unoccupied and miraculously no one was hurt anywhere that I heard. We had two panels of roof rip off our Gazebo and lost all our communications dishes and antennae, but that is relatively minor in the big picture.

What has all that weather stuff to do with sins of the tongue you might ask? Quite a bit actually. The weather is part of what we euphemistically term the “human condition”. Weather, illness, work, food or the lack thereof, comfort, love, friends, enemies, government, evil, good. Dissatisfaction continually at war with contentment. The thought appears: “Why is it always the tall trees that get blown down?”

Man, (and Woman) knows, with an inborn awareness, that something is wrong in this human existence, something not quite defined, a lurking shadow that effects everything we experience. It is easy to fixate on the weather as an excuse for our discomfort. It sets us “on edge”, ready to complain, ready to gossip, and vent our tale of woe and find someone we all agree on to blame.

Tall Poppies have to be cut down to size … they make the rest of us look bad …

Many of us in these enlightened progressive times like to think that the root cause of this historical disorder is the notion that “a man can do something wrong or evil”. All we need to be perfectly comfortable is to rid ourselves of the “silly claim” that good and evil actually exist. It’s all “relative”, right?

Yet evil and discontent seems perennially connected with our condition. Men did not suddenly realize one day that they sinned. From the beginning of history they did not and do not know what to do about the evils that they are sent and that they send into the world because of their sins. They sense that they have done wrong and all the bluster and pretense doesn’t make it feel OK. “I’m OK, Your OK” just doesn’t cut it when the rubber hits the road, no matter what the guru’s of self realization preach.

What man senses he needs is forgiveness. That forgiveness has to be placed in the hands of someone authorized to forgive. No ordinary person possesses this capacity. We are all in this together and if we are to escape our fate we have to be forgiven by someone outside the pit.

Over the last hundred thousand years or so, very few of the billions of people who have lived on this planet have heard of this forgiveness of sins that Revelation postulates. Among those who have heard of it, not many practice it. To cover this situation, we talk of being sorrowful. and we have been taught that God will forgive even if we know nothing of the Sacrament on the forgiveness of sin. Everyone has something that they know needs to be forgiven, however they rationalize, and justify, and distract themselves, but it can only go on so long. It just wears ya down.

Some expand this view to save everyone, we are all going to heaven, while others suspect that, if everyone is forgiven, no matter what they do, why bother being good? The good and the bad are equally redeemed with or equally without forgiveness, but as mentioned in a previous post “sin clouds our intellect and destroys right judgement”.

We know in our hearts that we need “forgiveness” from some authority above our state, our condition. We need forgiveness from God, from the Divine. And we need genuine forgiveness that does not excuse but requires sorrow, and contrition, and amendment and amends. I have been thinking about my sins and habits of thought and those things which walk into my mind and immediately pull the big EJECT handle and come out of my mouth without much consideration, if any. It’s time to get to Confession, isn’t it?

I have been thinking and talking this way all my adult life. And that in a nutshell is the root of all sin … sins of the tongue …  given flight without consideration simply because we are in “conversation with friends” and it is only natural to talk about others who are not present, perhaps even others who we don’t even know.

Judgement and attribution articulated with imputation of motives even when there is no way in this universe that we could know even the least bit about other’s intentions or motives. We just don’t know, and even if we did know, what makes it our job, our responsibility, to spread it around?

I have been reading (fourth painful time around now) a little book called “Sins of the Tongue” by a Fr. Belet for sale at for 91 cents.

From the Amazon blurb we have:

Originally written in French in 1870, Fr. Belet wages war against one of the worst sins of his (and our) time – backbiting – better known to us as detraction (telling the faults of others without cause). Most of us do not realize how evil this sin is. In fact, many of us don’t think it’s a sin at all. After ruining someone’s reputation, or satisfying our anger (and yes, our hatred) by spewing out every bad thing we can say about someone, we justify ourselves by saying, “Well, it’s true!”

We even think we are acting justly by giving someone what they deserve. Due to our lack of charity and also to our pride, little do we see things from God’s point of view, to whom these are vile sins – a form of hatred of neighbor – a failure to do the two things necessary – to love God and our neighbor (Matt. 22:37-40).

In explaining this sin of backbiting, properly called detraction, Fr. Belet quotes the best men of Western Civilization: Aristotle, Plato, Horace, Seneca, Pliny, the Roman Emperor Constantine, King David, Isaiah, Saints James, Luke, Matthew, Paul, John Chrysostom, Jerome, Cassian, Gregory the Great, Augustine, Bernard, Thomas Aquinas, and many others. A very helpful book for those who wish to know the meaning of backbiting—and how to avoid it.

So without further delay, to give us something to think about, when all we wanted to do was have a pleasant conversation over coffee with our friends, here is a quote from  somewhere in the middle of the text:


” … A master too short on words with his servant, or a man with his neighbor, obviously proves that he feels little friendship or kindness towards him.

A religious once said, “If we do not cultivate them, two kinds of thoughts will stop bothering us by themselves: thoughts of fornication and thoughts of backbiting. When they call, do not answer them; whatever they say, pay them no heed. If you act otherwise, you may try to resist but you will not escape their clutches.”

And one must not only avoid backbiting when it attacks charity and justice directly, but even when it turns on light defects and weaknesses of little importance. Even the worthiest of men are not always exempt from this sort of backbiting. Perhaps it is a lack of prudence or reflection, but even they take pleasure in relating the defects and faults of others to willing listeners.

Jean de La Fontaine; (8 July 1621 – 13 April 1695) was a French fabulist and one of the most widely read French poets of the 17th century. He is known above all for his Fables, which provided a model for subsequent fabulists across Europe and numerous alternative versions in France, as well as in French regional languages.

It would seem that we have taken this verse from La Fontaine as a motto: “I attempt to turn vice to ridicule, Since I cannot attack it with the arms of Hercules“. And why be surprised? The human race has an instinctive propensity for criticizing other people’s behavior. We all carry the scarlet with which we paint everyone. Everything that seems blameworthy in our sight turns into vice at once, and it is all the greater in the proportion that we want to appear wiser and more religious.
Saint Jerome says, “The passion of this evil has so infested the world that people who have totally renounced other vices still fall into this one. One might say it is the last trap the devil sets for them.” This rashness of judgment is often accompanied by envy, the sworn enemy of the happiness of others.

The envious person tries to calm his bad temper by disparaging another man’s merits in every way imaginable; he suffers less when he sees others damaged by some defect. Envy is often preceded by a secret pride, which spurs us to wish to be preferred above others, or at least to be their equal. For fear that our neighbor may rise too high and eclipse us, we craftily clip his wings.

We see that conversations which reveal good men’s imperfections often result in countless evils. Upon hearing his neighbor’s weaknesses related, more than one listener will be tempted to tell his friends, “Look at what he did, and everyone mistakes him for a little saint! If he committed that fault, he will certainly commit a lot more. I thought he was so virtuous, but I see him now; he has his faults too.”

Many people’s consciences are disturbed by such talk. If the slandered person’s reputation is not totally lost, it is seriously damaged. Bonds of friendship and kindness are broken; the absent person who is spoken about will certainly be held in contempt. And how can the accused defend himself when usually he is not even aware of the blows being struck against him, or at least of who their author is?

That is how a man can be murdered and not even know it. The sin is all the more serious when someone backbites people in honored positions, even in light matters, and even if they are guilty. “Even in your thoughts do not make light of the king, nor in the privacy of your bedroom revile him, because the birds of the air may carry your voice, a winged creature may tell what you say” (Eccl. 10:20). You see, Holy Scripture tells us not only to avoid backbiting, it even commands us to banish it from our thoughts.

You who backbite, do not think it suffices to tell your listeners, “Don’t reveal what I say, I beg of you, I confide this secret to your discretion.” You are no less guilty, and this behavior proves how simple you are. Pray tell, why do you ask him to keep silence? You are the one who should have kept silence first. If you do not want your words to leak out, then keep them to yourself! You have not remained silent and you would shut other people’s mouths? If you are in such a rush to pull the stopper out of the spigot, then what can you expect of others?

Saint Francis of Assisi had an extreme aversion to backbiting and slanderous accusations. His biographer, Saint Bonaventure, relates that one of his brothers said evil about another and leveled several accusations against him. The Saint told his assistant, “Father, go and examine this affair. If the accused is innocent, punish his accuser so severely that it will give others an example, and he will remember it.”

Saint Francis even wanted to remove the religious habit from a brother who had not been afraid to remove the cloak of another’s reputation, so that it would be done to him as he had done to others, and in this way he would be obliged to restore the reputation he had stolen. …

Backbiting drags a whole host of evils in its wake: it depraves anyone who listens to it, causes the backbiter to be considered a slanderer, and incurs the hatred of his neighbor. God has attached an enormous ball to this chain: the obligation of restoring the neighbor’s reputation. Saint Augustine’s words here are as true for backbiting as for money: “Non dimittitur peccatum nisi restituatur ablatum: No restoration, no pardon” (St. Augustine, Epistle 65, Ad Macedoniae).

It is a common principle among theologians (Saint Thomas Aquinas, Summa Theologica, Part II, Section II, Question 62, Article 2.) that restoring their neighbor’s reputation is obligatory not only for those who have revealed an imaginary crime of his, but also those who have revealed a true but secret crime. They are held to giving him at least an equivalent compensation: and they owe this compensation to the detriment not only of their own reputation, but also their life.

Along with their neighbor’s reputation, they must repair all the harm he has incurred; and they must do so even if what they revealed is true. Since the thing is true, they are held to tell everyone who heard them not that they were lying, but that they were backbiting. Even if it were only for the inconvenience of being obliged to repair your neighbor’s reputation, backbiting should be avoided like the plague.

How painful to have to retract what you said and undergo the shame of such a restoration! It is easy to return an item of clothing, a sum of money or personal property unjustly acquired; there are a thousand ways of doing it. But restoring a reputation, what a burden! Now, the gravity of this sin lies precisely in the difficulty of repairing it.

When an opinion has been revealed, it soon spreads all over, going through cities and empires, and a hitherto unknown person soon acquires a sad celebrity. But if you try and praise someone you have previously denigrated, you are wasting your time. What you said has taken root too strongly, and too many people know about it. “People believe evil first; But when it comes to the good, Then seeing is believing.” (La Fontaine)

But you will say, “Backbiting flourishes everywhere, and no one ever makes restoration.” Ah that is precisely the evil I deplore! Do you think our worst habits can excuse our vices? Just because “everyone does it,” does that give you the right to do something? The vast number of fools is no praise for folly. Besides, it is false to say that reputations are never repaired. I would prefer to think it occurs only rarely. … ”

Fr. Belet. Sins of the Tongue:: The Backbiting Tongue . KIC. Kindle Edition.

But … but … all I want to do is have a pleasant conversation over coffee with my friends … and why are Canadians such great practitioners of “Tall Poppy Syndrome”? I have heard it is a social term about a phenomenon in Australia and New Zealand, but I’ve never been there and have only experienced the Canadian version, almost a national sport here, after putting down Americans, and Hockey. Why do so many great people become “from Canada”, because they have to leave the country to succeed?  Just why is that?

Scary, isn’t it?




… how much of what we read on Twitter and Facebook is Backbiting? Is this cartoon backbiting?




Life in a small town, The Inner Struggle

Lost Generations …

Fr. Ripperger

Fr. Chad Ripperger notes that “It does not take a doctorate in moral or spiritual theology to recognize that the Church and the world are in a particularly bad state, morally and spiritually.”  He then asks a key question that must be answered before we can address a solution to this situation: “How did we get here?”

As an exorcist, Fr. Ripperger is familiar with something called “generational spirits.”  Normally, this term applies to demons that trouble a family from one generation to another.  But, he notes, what can happen in a family can also happen to an entire generation within a nation or a culture. Fr. Ripperger’s writing starts in the third paragraph of the article linked to below in the quote from that article.

Who Ya Gonna Call? We are faced with a clear choice …

“God assigns an angel to protect that generation and sometimes the angel is one who is given to help the generation overcome the problems it faces. But demons, by the permissive will of God, also afflict a generation. . . The purpose of this article is to examine the spiritual causes of how we got here by focusing on a rather narrow area of spiritual reality: demons, or more specifically, generational spirits.

Not everyone in a particular generation will be affected by the particular generational spirit of that generation. . . . [Each of the last five generations has had a generational spirit, easily identifiable, which has afflicted it. Lastly, we will talk about the sixth generation, now being born, whose direction, if the sixth generational spirit gets its way, does not bode well. (Fr. Ripperger – all quotes taken from Latin Mass magazine, summer 2012)”

The decline we are experiencing in the Church today is not going to be arrested by programs or activities.

There is a battle–a spiritual battle–that has been raging for five generations.  We need to learn once again how to put on the armor of God, as St. Paul exhorted the Ephesians, believers in the first century.  He was well aware of the demonic dimension of our battle:

Fossil Fools

For our struggle is not with flesh and blood but with the principalities, with the powers, with the world rulers of this present darkness, with the evil spirits in the heavens. (Ephesians 6:12)

Here is another link to Fr. Ripperger talking on the subject of his article linked to above. This talk was given at a conference in 2017 (I think).  From the video notes we have: “This is an incredible historical video/ lecture by Fr. Chad Ripperger. Fr. Ripperger is a leading expert in the area of spiritual warfare.

What is truly revealing is his criticism of “The Greatest Generation” as used by Tom Brokaw in his best selling book. Truly remarkable assessment, IMHO. Look at how it evolved from The Lost Generation.

And from it follows my generation, i.e. The Baby Boomer or Hippie Generation, and from this, my children’s generation.

Listen to the good Father’s commentary about my generation’s personal characteristics at the 30 minute time slot to about 32 minutes. Then reflect about our current presidential candidates.

Need I say more? Look at how he describes the Millennials. And you wonder why they migrated towards Bernie Sanders (and good ol’ Joe Bidden). Again, this is truly a remarkable lecture and well worth listening too.

I cannot urge you enough to watch this video in its entirety.”

And another good audio link to a Fr. Ripperger interview at “Athanasius Contra Mundum”, with interview topics in Philosophy and Theology ranging from the Multi-verse and Time to transgenderism, Martin Scorsese’s film Silence, and Bishop Athanasius Schneider’s call for a new Syllabus of Errors to condemn errors in Ecclesiology and the misappropriation of the term “Priesthood of the Laity”.

So I’d guess that’s enough for now. Do you really have to wonder what is going on now with all this “COVID-19”, “Red Bat Flu”, “New Cases” mania nonsense. It’s all about control and taking generations down a broad path to perdition. And we are all just walking blindly in the direction that the Brights are ordering us to go “for our own good and protection of our neighbours”.

But there remains Hope. Hope in God’s power to bring Good out of Evil. I share this link to give us hope that all is not lost. There are still things of beauty that spark Joy.



Just a little rough patch, the only way is “underway”. Quid Hoc ad Aeternitatem,

Health, Life in a small town, The Inner Struggle

Deadly … Well, life is deadly, isn’t it?

Here we are again, been pretty busy wrapping up year end and other stuff. Found an interesting speaker, a Dr. Jennifer Daniels, who I have begun watching/listening to on Vimeo/Facebook thanks to my wife of 40+ years now. Sometimes my wife seems pretty smart, says the happy husband.  Anyway, here is a link to Dr. Daniels’ latest podcast called “Deadlier than What?”

While I don’t agree with everything she recommends, I do agree vehemently with her take on the current regime of fear uncertainty and doubt with which our political and medical masters are terrorizing their constituents into doing whatever they tell them whenever they tell them and regardless of whatever they told them yesterday.

Has anyone noticed that all the usual suspects have quietly stopped harping on all the “deaths” and only report on “new cases”, which are really just “new positive” results of a “test” which can be made to generate 100% positive results if “cooked” long enough and often enough.

Positive “test” results happen to include those with the “flu”, those with a sniffle, and even those with no symptomatic results at all, in other words most “positives” are not even sick by any symptomatic measure and that includes the majority of the population.

So what IS going on?  Anyone? Anyone? I have commented in the past, literally for years, that we are all victims of a fatal STD. Yes! We all have a fatal STD! It’s called “Life”!  The real thought of note here is something attributed to G.K. Chesterton: “When men choose not to believe in God, they do not thereafter believe in nothing, they then become capable of believing in anything.

Enough for now, gotta get back to real stuff in the here and now …



Just a little rough patch, the only way is “underway”.





The Inner Struggle

Canada Day, 2020 … and our Neighbor’s Fourth of July … Ave Atque Vale

Rise_and_FallMore thinking.  Listening to “Dargaard, “Rise and Fall“, 2004,

Not a well known band. Not a popular theme with our current crop of “Brights”. After all, they know everything, see everything, and “understand” all the reality that matters. Right?

Well, Canada Day, last Wednesday, they (our Bright Masters) banned public fireworks displays and parades and such abominations in the name of “Social Distancing”.

And here in the Shire, in the heart of flyover country, we flipped them the bird and went ahead and had a parade anyway, and the best fireworks display I remember in years.

And today, the Fourth of July, we hear that the folks in California did essentially the same thing to their Masters. Who’d have figured Californians for growing some. so there are still a few folks around who haven’t  bent over to the Progressive tide washing away our civilization.  A number of legal rulings in recent years in the U.S. and Canada (by the “Supremes”)have come down on the side of the progressive meme that “Natural Law” no longer  applies to our “Society”, our “Civilization”.

Now we see some conflict in the enemy camp, as the LGBTQ faction claim no relationship with NAMBLA, and NAMBLA tries to claim membership in the LGBTQ “movement”.  But mostly we are drowning in BLM violence and hate. And the very people whose lives are supposed to matter are the greatest victims of their own violence, along with the highest abortion rate in the country … all supported by Democrats and Planned Parenthood. Yea, right … BLM … sure they do.

But, aside from the tragedy of BLM it IS somewhat amusing to see various tribes of Progressives trying to put distance between their claim to legitimacy and other tribes who are still “Beyond the Pale” and make them uncomfortable. What’s next? Marrying your sheep? And what about the 95% of the world population who are even more uncomfortable with the whole LGBTQ meme than the LGBTQ folks are uncomfortable with the NAMBLA meme?  What about us?

But we are still the “Polite Society”, unless of course we notice someone who disagrees with us and our current views on society and morality … then we become … well, not so nice. The silver lining in all of this is that “Anthropogenic Global Warming” has completely stopped being a thing … replaced by “Pandemic Hysteria” and face masks have replaced Blue-Boxes as the new badge of “Virtue Signaling.

What is “Civilization”? What is “Society”? O Canada, Our home and native land … the only thing left to history will be the fossil record … in Canada that will be “Fossilized Minds”. Ban Fossil Fools! What about our “cultural decline”? How do we stack up?

What were the habits and cultural trends when the Greeks sank into oblivion? When Rome sank into oblivion? When the Eastern Empire sank into oblivion? France? Wiemar? The mighty Soviet colossus? Just the first few that come to mind, the list is endless spanning all of history.

David Warren recently posted: “A platitude, widely circulated in my youth, held that “ideas have consequences.” It is true, after a fashion. It is especially true of stupid ideas. Already, half a century ago, in the universities I was determined to avoid (except their libraries, and interesting professors), it seemed to me that “Dullness” reigned. This is the goddess who presides over The Dunciad, of Alexander Pope. According to my diagnosis at the time, the intellectual life of Canada, at least, was governed by malice, borne of mediocrity, or worse — conveyed in a (sickeningly sweet) syrup medium of affected niceness. But was this ever not so?

Looking back, I see how I overestimated my own intelligence, and underestimated my arrogance. For I was, like many others, a willful child; just other-willed from most. Nonetheless, I was aware that a generation of American draft dodgers were infiltrating our schools, and linking up with our native “commies,” who likewise had no taste for learning. Rather their ideal of education was agitprop: not the thing itself, but protesting the thing.”

So Joe quotes from Alexander Pope:

“Religion blushing veils her sacred fires,
And unawares Morality expires.
Nor public flame, nor private, dares to shine;
Nor human spark is left, nor glimpse divine!
Lo! thy dread empire Chaos! is restored:
Light dies before thy uncreating word;
Thy hand, great Anarch! lets the curtain fall,
And universal darkness buries all.

  • Book IV, line 649. The Dunciad, of Alexander Pope.

We Happy Few …

Happy Canada Day! Justin forbid that we might be speaking moistly!  Horrors!  A hundred people watching a Canada Day parade, the spectators outnumbered by the participants in the parade on main street although many others showed up later further down the route, all scattered down the parade route in little groups and knots of whispering families no group closer than 10 or twenty feet from each other, no candy being thrown from the parade floats, no screaming children running gaily around, where have they all gone?

What is to be done when the life goes out of a culture and a society, the idea of “natural law” ridiculed and abandoned; when appetites and passions rule and all civilized restraint is cast aside on the alter of self indulgence? Is there anything to be done to redeem or restore the wreckage as the slide into the pit of deviance and degradation continues at an ever increasing rate?

I think not.  There are no believers to uphold the right, the just, the moral.  There is dissension everywhere, eloquent wisdom of the jackals, pandering to a phalanx of followers and hangers on. A cloistered parenthesis of tawdry trepidation staring runny eyed into the infernal chasm of the banal. The kingdom of the Chestless, and the Dull.

Some interesting reading here”, and “here and “here“.

Looking upon the daily actions and proclamations, the daily supplications to this and that, some of us gain some wisdom but it is not the wisdom of the wise, not the wisdom of this age, or of the rulers of this age. All these must pass away, and come to nothing. looking back over the last four thousand years there is not one exception to this, regardless of how sure each generation was in their righteousness and power, “Look on my works ye mighty, and despair”.

No ruler or wise man in their generation understand this because they are blinded by their own brilliance and think”Of course, how could it be otherwise”?  Jealousy and Strife are rampant. Our ancestors only laid a foundation. We are the current work gang, the current builders. We decide how the structure grows or falls, and the Justices, the Supremes,  are anything but…

SatanThe image is a link.  Arrogance, pride and immorality, greed, rivalry, fraud, drunkenness, drugs, adultery, fornication, promiscuity, deviance, prostitution, gluttony, recourse to the courts, brother against brother, sister against sister, mother against father and father against mother, slavery, mutilation, bestiality, sacrifice and taxes, an endless list of human travail.

All of us are “knowledgeable” and our knowledge puffs us up with self importance, does not our knowledge invite us to hold forth about things about which we know nothing based on our perceived expertise in another area?  If anyone thinks he knows something he just has not yet realized that he knows nothing. It is what we don’t know we don’t know that bites us to death.

We easily follow dumb idols, wealth power, sex, self importance, self esteem, influence, possessions, standing in the community, what are our personal idols? I speak in poetry and wisdom  in honeyed tones. All shall LOVE ME and despair. All shall abide by my directions. I understand mysteries, I prophecy a future of comfort and plenty for all.

BUT … somewhere in here, in my daily Gedankenexperiment, my tunes changed to this …

Am I patient and kind?  Am I Jealous or boastful? Am I arrogant or rude? Do I insist on my own way? Do I rejoice at other’s experience of misfortune? Am I irritable and resentful? Do I bear inconvenient events and happenings with patience and good will? Do I give folks the benefit of the doubt? Am I cynical? Have I no hope? Thinking on how I live my life … there seems to be a large amount of room to be bitten by what I don’t know I don’t know. About the only thing that seems obvious is that we have seen all of this before, many many, times throughout history.

Rewriting history to hide the unpleasant truth doesn’t help one to avoid the consequences of our actions. We are history in the making.  What has come before doesn’t fill me with joy at our potential. Do you ever feel like you are a Centurion in the Ninth Legion, standing night watch, looking out over Hadrian’s Wall, the loneliest outpost of the empire, with a cold wet winter breeze rustling your hair in little puffs, and a chill runs down your back because you can’t see what is coming at you in the dark, and Rome is crumbling behind you?

“Happy Canada Day everyone!”, and “Happy Fourth if July”.







Life in a small town, The Inner Struggle

Good Sunday Morning …

I have been writing over the last few days … up to about 10,000 words already and nothing in it that sparks joy. Just an endless litany of the evil I see around me and in the media … it can get depressing as Hell and one can find oneself looking at a landscape of despair.

I decided there is only one rebuttal to all the endless river of evil, the endless invitation to give up and just go with the flow because, as I am told by relatives and sundry collaborators, there is nothing one can do about it. David Warren writes:

“… it seemed to me that “Dullness” reigned (and reigns today). This is the goddess who presides over The Dunciad, of Alexander Pope. According to my diagnosis at the time, the intellectual life of Canada, at least, was governed by malice, borne of mediocrity, or worse — conveyed in a (sickeningly sweet) syrup medium of affected niceness. But was this ever not so?”

And is it not even more so today all around us in our “polite society”? And worse, much, much worse, in “America The Beautiful” as I heard her called in my naive youth. Remember the Chicago Riots during the 1968 Democratic Convention? Over 50 years ago, now, and counting, a great American political party was murdered by its own children and closest friends.

And 50 years on we are now run by the murderers on both sides of the border. We have Pandemic and BLM and “Kill and destroy everyone who voices disagreement”. There are only allies of convenience and enemies. Friends no longer exist, brothers and sisters no longer speak with each other, and families have been shattered, abdicating all ties to embrace the current fear uncertainty and doubt. This is the end of the godless world of the father of lies.

I have one rebuttal to all this violent screaming hatred and murder … here’s another vision of reality … from Times Square, New York City – play it loud with good headphones :



Semper Fidelis, Brothers and Sisters

Just a little rough patch, the only way is “underway”.

The Inner Struggle

Easter, and the Resurrection in a Plague Year …

“Crux Fidelis”, Benedictines of Mary, Queen of Apostles, from the album “Lent at Ephesus”, (2014)


The Isenheim Altarpiece is an altarpiece sculpted and painted by, respectively, the Germans Niclaus of Haguenau and Matthias Grünewald in 1512–1516

Psalm 1: “How blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked, … “

From the liturgy of the hours, this evening, April 13th in the year of our Lord 2020. Indeed an excellent Psalm for our current times …  and so does Bill also have a few trenchant words for our current blight … Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow …

“She should have died hereafter; There would have been a time for such a word. Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow, Creeps in this petty pace from day to day To the last syllable of recorded time, And all our yesterdays have lighted fools The way to dusty death.

Out, out, brief candle! Life’s but a walking shadow, a poor player That struts and frets his hour upon the stage And then is heard no more: it is a tale Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, Signifying nothing.”
Bill Shakespeare, Macbeth (1611?)

Today I have used some images taken from the Wickedpedia, the free encyclopedia, The Isenheim Altarpiece is an altarpiece sculpted and painted by, respectively, the Germans Niclaus of Haguenau and Matthias Grünewald in 1512–1516. I suspect these were real “Plague Years”, not this FUD filled “Plague Lite” which our leaders are currently inflicting on us. Anyway, no point in complaining about leaders, just thank God they are not shooting us yet.

I will not just copy everything they (the Wickedpedia) have to say about it but suffice to say, just go on over and visit it and read the article, it is worth one’s time to understand better the past history which contributed to Western European Civilization’s rise, especially since we are in such a hurry to blow it all away in our modern progressive wasteland.

OH, also, a trick question: “Why are there so few “O” blood type humans in Europe, except for in a couple of German Provinces? Bonus points for a cogent answer and it will be on the final exam as well.

I am thinking much these days about my attachments and how they get in the way of living in the Will of God, the Divine Will as related by Luisa Piccarreta. Some of this post I have reworked from one I made three or so years ago. My thoughts have not diverged much along the way to here. Anyway …

In fact all of the items, objections, observations, and situations complained about, and judged, and questioned in many of my posts, while provably “true” for some values of “true”, are firmly rooted in my own biases, attractions, beliefs, and narratives in and about this material world.


Grunewald – Isenheim Altarpiece – First View

In short, my ego, my “self” is intimately enmeshed in all my observations and conclusions, MY plans, MY dreams, MY opinions, MY understanding.

I don’t believe that I am uniquely blessed. I believe that we all share these attachments to the material, especially if we strongly believe that this time based material reality is all there is.

Viewed through my human nature, all these things are ultimately important, but viewed through my soul nature they are really seen to be unimportant and irrelevant, mere distractions on the path.

And yet … and yet … we insist on refusing to see what is right before us. We dive into the unreal and forsake the real for the sake of our passions, our tastes, our desires, our egos.


Barabbas is in each one of us. We are scoundrels, experts in selfishness, boasting, lust, violence and greed. We are bandits, taking God’s many gifts and ungratefully neglecting them and squandering them.


Grunewald Isenheim Second View

We take for granted the most precious realities of life: family, life, nature, health, faith, and the sacraments.  We squander our talents, our money, our time, and the love others offer us.

We are quick to criticize and judge, to steal others’ honor and sully it with our moral and intellectual myopia. What do we, who are so flawed, so weak, so slow to repent, and so reluctant to serve — what do we deserve?

Certainly not God’s love, certainly not his continued forgiveness, certainly not redemption, hope, peace, and heaven. Strictly speaking, we deserve to be cut off from the kingdom against which we have so often rebelled — just like the murderous insurgent Barabbas.


Grunewald Isenheim Third View

And yet, Jesus overlooks what we deserve. It is Passover, and the angel of justice passes over the sinner to wreak his punishments on the Lamb of God instead.

Look at the Lord with the eyes of Barabbas. Is there any heart that loves you more than His Sacred Heart? Is there any heart more trustworthy than the heart that died so that you might have abundant life? John Bartunek, LC, ThD.The Better Part”, pp321



Grunewald’s Risen Christ

We insist on refusing to see what is right before us — we refuse to see reality through the eyes of our spirit/soul — we clutch at our “self” and our passions, appetites, vices, and sins, because, as Screwtape says (about half way down one of my posts): “you must remember that he (us) takes Time for an ultimate reality”.

As we walk through this “valley of death”, this mortal world full of evil both without and within, we find that the closer we cling to the visible, material, temporal vision, the more we fear.

Because when you really look at everything around us, the happenings, and events, and personal relations, and national relations, the EVERYTHING in TIME, the more we fear.

Because, if we actually pull our collective heads out of the “sand” (or wherever) the more we have to acknowledge that there is not one damned thing we can do about any of it.

And if this is all there is then we may just as well end it all. If this is all there is then what is really the point? 


Mathis Gothart Grunewald’s “St. John The Baptist” illum oportet crescere me autem minui (Vulgate, John 3:30 ), “He must increase, but I must decrease.

This morning I visited another WordPress blog which I follow at “Finding Hope”  Often I am encouraged and given hope reading what this person writes. This time I found there a story specifically about this struggle with “What’s The Point”. It brought me to tears and to prayer:

A Prayer of Sorrow

” I have fallen, Lord, once more. I can’t go on. I’ll never succeed. I am ashamed.  I don’t dare look at you. And yet I struggled, Lord, for I knew you were right near me, bending over me, watching.

But temptation blew like a hurricane, and instead of you I turned my head away. I stepped aside, while you stood silent and sorrowful. Lord, don’t look at me like that.

For I am ashamed and sorrowful. I am down, shattered, with no strength left. I dare make no more promises. I can only stand bowed before you.

 Come, Child, look up. Isn’t it mainly your vanity that is wounded? If you loved me you would grieve but you would trust. Do you think that there is a limit to God’s love? Do you think that for a moment I stopped loving you? But you still rely on yourself.

 You must rely on me. Ask my pardon and get up quickly. You see, it’s not falling that is worse, but staying on the ground.”

Wow …

If we are not careful we find ourselves angry with God because “He is doing this to me!” and we can’t bring ourselves to recognize our own failings and faults, and that God is not really “doing this to us” but just watching us sorrowfully from His eternal NOW as we do these spiteful things to  ourselves to “punish” Him.

And then consider how much of what we do daily is out of spite and passive aggression.  Spite at family members, spite at neighbours, spite at friends, spite at groups of people we “have a bone to pick” with, spite at other drivers, spite at other folks in public places or in the news, spite at professional groups, anyway, you get my drift.

Matushka Juliana Schmemann, Fr. Alexander Schmemann, and Alexander Solzhenitsyn

Matushka Juliana Schmemann, Fr. Alexander Schmemann, and Alexander Solzhenitsyn

Our spiritual point of view completely obscured by passion , resentment and pride, so we do and say things we later regret or find are mistaken in their target and intent.

“Every evil screams out only one message: “I am good”! And not only does it scream, but it also demands that the people cry out tirelessly in response: ‘You  are good, you are freedom, you are happiness’ “(Father Alexander Schmemann)

All of these passions painting layer upon layer of darkness on the vision of our soul/spirit, completely obscuring reality.

These “little sins” of spite, of holding grudges and passive aggression until vengeance be meted out are really great big sins of pride, of our ego, of needing to be seen and heard and esteemed, even by God, if we still remember Him.

“An Taiseirl (The Resurrection)”, Noirin Ni Riain and The Monks Of Glenstal Abbey, from the album “Vox de Nube”, (1996)

My mother (God rest her soul) went to her grave, “died unshriven”  as they say, or bás a fháil gan sagart” as our Irish ancestors would say, that is “not having confessed sins to a priest and been given absolution”  after 32 years of rejecting God and the church and the sacraments.

Because she just couldn’t accept that God’s plan for her life did not align with her plan for her life. After my father died, at 57,  my mother (always a very stubborn woman) rejected the church, priests, God, religion, holding out for her plan, until vengeance be meted out.


Fyodor Dostoyevsky

In her early life, although we were poor, she did her best to raise us children so that we never wanted for anything essential, even including making our clothes.

She looked out for us with devotion and worshiped my father as her eternal love.  She died a unhappy woman at 92 still holding out for the material reality of her plan and rejecting the soul/spirit view of eternity.

God gave her 32 more years after he took Dad, to come to an understanding of reality and we discussed it and argued about it countless times for 32 years. I must have been a real pain in the ass when all she really wanted was to be left alone in her bitterness.

In some ways she reminded me, in the last 30 years of her life, of “The Old Woman and The Onion” fable which appears in Fyodor Dostoyevsky’s novel “The Brothers Karamazov“.

My mother refused to give up her narrative and her plan regardless of the cost.

And all that misery and bitterness because she took TIME for reality and could never bring herself to accept that this world didn’t matter, that she had to give up HER plan for life and accept God’s plan. At least, that is how it seemed to me at the time, and of course I know very little if anything, and God knows all and everything, so I pray that IF I make it to heaven some day, I find my mother there waiting for me and remarking “Well, finally, I thought you were never coming”.

15Love not the world, nor the things which are in the world. If any man love the world, the charity of the Father is not in him. 16For all that is in the world, is the concupiscence of the flesh, and the concupiscence of the eyes, and the pride of life, which is not of the Father, but is of the world. 17And the world passeth away, and the concupiscence thereof: but he that doth the will of God, abideth for ever. (1 John 2, Douay-Rheims Bible)

We would be better to write poems of Love to God:


Ah, Love, let us be true to one another!
For the world, which seems
To lie before us like a land of dreams,
So various, so beautiful, so new,
Hath really neither joy, nor love, nor light,
Nor certitude, nor peace, nor help for pain;
And we are here as on a darkling plain
Swept with confused alarms of struggle and flight,
Where ignorant armies clash by night.”

(Mathew Arnold, English Poet, 1822 — 1888)



Inuit Snow Goggles

It seems obvious at this point what reality is and what the choice is that must be made, between a short syllable of time or all eternity, to devote our short lives to chasing happiness and success in this world or take off our narrow goggles and pursue eternity.

But in order to detach from the important material things which fill up our lives and leave us bitter and afraid we have to abandon our “selfishness” and trust God.

Selfishness is rooted in “FEAR” of losing something good for ourselves or missing out on something which might make us happy, or whatever … we often do not even know what it is we are afraid of losing or missing out on, but we are sure someone else is getting it and we are not.

The main obstacle or hurdle to overcome when approaching the spirit/soul point of view is self love. It is immensely difficult to develop detachment from this world while fully immersed in the pool of self love where this time based world is everything. I have been pounding my block head against this stone wall for decades with the only result being an understanding that I cannot do this on my own. Easy to say, immensely difficult to put into practice in a world of Time and Self. Beg GOD to help me do this … there is no “Dummies” book for this.

By immersing oneself in the world of spirit, outside time and space, where everything material is unimportant we are able to appreciate and understand just what an infinitesimal part of reality is the part with time, which we choose to believe constitutes all of reality. Really … I can say that so easily … but it is difficult to practice because I have to give up … and I have been drilling into myself all my life from the earliest years I can remember “Never Give Up, Never Give Up, Never Give Up”.

So we have to give up our self and trust God, a difficult target when we have so much trouble trusting everything in Time, our family or our friends, or the folks at work or at the corner store.

Trust; trust God, who knows us so much better than we even know ourselves since he conceived us and created us and he loves us more than we love ourselves and he wants nothing more than our absolute happiness and well being. He knows what we need. So in conclusion (for now)  “LET IT GO!” We have to move from “My will be done” to “Thy will be done”. Our future depends on it.



100-canadian-landscapeWe fight the long defeat because results are not as important as our Father’s delight. We fight the long defeat because we are not the authorities over “success.” We fight the long defeat because the final victory is coming.

The Inner Struggle

Good Friday … 2020

“Crux Fidelis”, Benedictines of Mary, Queen of Apostles, from the album “Lent at Ephesus”, (2014)

This whole pandemic panic, this Red Bat Flu season has been a spotlight on all the trivial pursuits, all those ways we distract ourselves in a never ending whirlwind of self worship.

The storm of activity keeps us from having to deal with all the ways we focus on our tastes, and passions and desires … our “attachments”.

It makes certain that we will not notice all the time we waste when we should be focusing on our soul and eternity.

SO a great big thank you to Red Bat Flu, for shutting down all the distractions

Today, Good Friday, I watched “The Passion of The Christ” again. This film is still as powerful now as it was the first time I watched it.

I think most people in the West have probably watched “The Passion of the Christ” at least once. For others, it is more than once.

And yet for others, myself included, it has become an annual Lenten“ritual”, and this year there is no “church” since they have all been closed by the civil power on pain of $500,000.00 fines.

Oh Lord, You have created me for Yourself, to love You and to enjoy You, infinite Good, ineffable Beauty; do not permit me to lose sight of this sublime end toward which I must tend; do not permit me to wander among the wretched satisfactions that vain, feeble creatures can offer me. (I don’t remember where I read that but it is too beautiful to be mine)

“Good Friday”, the end of Lent. Lent is about sorrow, contrition, and repentance.  Recent scripture readings and meditations have sensitized the soul’s faculties to the clear realization of my sinfulness, and of God’s most wondrous prerogative, namely God’s mercy, and the revival of our adoption by Christ who: “desires not the death of the wicked, but that the wicked turn from his way and live” (Cf. Ezek. 33:11) … “this realization of mercy becomes the impetus of the soul’s advancement in virtue, the inspiration of its power for good, and its daily shield in its struggle for eternal life“. (John A. Kane, “How To Make A Good Confession”, pp 14)

I see “conversion” as a dawning awareness of the real truth of my sinfulness, a spiritual coming of age, where my soul experiences an ever intensifying consciousness of my preferential option for self worship, self gratification and of “sinning” in the pursuit of pleasure, consolation, satisfaction as ends in and of themselves.

The Passion of The Christ by Igor Zenin

The Passion of The Christ by Igor Zenin

The essence of this “conversion” is the turning of my soul and my faculties from sin towards identification of, and identifying with, the will of God, and a concomitant experience of remorse in understanding the lifelong predilection for self centered thoughts, habits, activities and attachments.

I had an intense AHA! experience a couple of years ago, the realization, in my own tiny way, of the pain God feels when his creatures turn away from his love and his care for them and his desire for them to live “the good life” in his orbit and under his protection.

This is what I do, in my selfishness, when I, essentially, tell God to “Just bugger off and leave me alone!” I want to do my own thing, to be me, to act out my own plan regardless of the consequences and the impact on others. I only care about me. It is manifest in a total absence of fraternal charity.

And then, when things go wrong, as they inevitably do, when I find myself in a place where I cannot control my life, where it is  all just happening to me and there is nothing I can do about it, I get focused on my little pain from some small source and I think that is everything there is and it is the greatest pain ever.

But right now it is difficult to imagine that my pain is special. It is hard to keep feeling special when I am watching the whole world trying to “shut down” to contain and constrain the spread of the deadly “Red Bat Flu”.

Even one of my favorite Prelates has something to say about it. Robert Cardinal Sarah said the following: This virus acted as a warning. In a matter of weeks, the great illusion of a material world that thought itself all-powerful seems to have collapsed. A few days ago, politicians were talking about growth, pensions, reducing unemployment. They were sure of themselves.

And now a virus, a microscopic virus, has brought this world to its knees, a world that looks at itself, that pleases itself, drunk with self-satisfaction because it thought it was invulnerable. The current crisis is a parable. It has revealed how all we do and are invited to believe was inconsistent, fragile and empty. We were told: you can consume without limits! But the economy has collapsed and the stock markets are crashing. Bankruptcies are everywhere.

We were promised to push the limits of human nature ever further by a triumphant science. We were told about artificial procreation, surrogate motherhood, transhumanism, enhanced humanity. We boasted of being a man of synthesis and a humanity that biotechnologies would make invincible and immortal.

But here we are in a panic, confined by a virus about which we know almost nothing. Epidemic was an outdated, medieval word. It suddenly became our everyday life. I believe this epidemic has dispelled the smoke of illusion.

The so-called all-powerful man appears in his raw reality. There he is naked. His weakness and vulnerability are glaring. Being confined to our homes will hopefully allow us to turn our attention back to the essentials, to rediscover the importance of our relationship with God, and thus the centrality of prayer in human existence.

And, in the awareness of our fragility, to entrust ourselves to God and to his paternal mercy. —Cardinal Robert Sarah, April 9th, 2020; Catholic Register

God feels all the pain of all the behaviour of all His love children, those creatures He created, out of love, to share His love with, and who He holds in His hands and holds their everything in existence, so they can misbehave with impunity, so they can torture Him and kill Him, His  hateful creatures, hurting Him continuously and without pause, for all our time, in His eternal now.

I don’t think a human creature can even begin to realize the pain they cause God by disobedience, and the malice of self worship, until that human starts to get past the attachments to “self”  and the self-righteous anger response when that belief, that worship of “self” is threatened or challenged in some way. The only thing that teaches me, that reaches me, is the pain of overwhelming loss of precisely those things or thoughts to which I am most attached.

Jesus Christ, circa AD 30

Jesus Christ, circa AD 30

This painful experience fans the flames of my soul’s ever intensifying awareness of the preponderance of self worship, self gratification, self aggrandizement, and the serious attachment to all things and experiences centered on healing the wounds of my self regard, my self image to which I find myself so inordinately attached.

Attachment … to all the things of this world, but especially those things and experiences which reinforce my self regard, my self-worship. Becoming aware of this I feel sorrow and contrition for my conduct, now and throughout my whole life. I remember every little thing, from childhood to late in life looking back over my personal tale of woe, my misbehavior, my willfulness, and I am sorry.

The contrition experience gives rise to a desire for repentance, a desire to make atonement for past sins, a transformation of my mind, an up-welling of the supernatural drowning the natural in an intensifying struggle. How to atone? How to repent? Repent, atone, by cutting adrift all those elements, all those attachments, which contribute to the healing of the wounds of my self love, to papering over of those ugly wounds inflicted by self worship, to whitewashing my black heart.

My attachments are a significant part of the framework within which I view “reality” and is it really real? As I have remarked before, some famous guy once said: “it’s what we don’t know that we don’t know that bites our ass in the end”. I have great difficulty identifying and isolating attachments. I desire to see my soul as God sees it, the better to repent for a lifetime of all-purpose sin, my repertoire, my curriculum vitae of “being human”.

Identifying and isolating my attachments has been greatly assisted by my now 3 year long program of fasting … never realized just how much I was attached to food, and the activities surrounding food, until I started fasting. Now it has become obvious that all attachments hide like this, they hide in plain sight within the normal every day experiences of life until I isolate them by choosing a new and different direction for my habits, thoughts, actions.

“Your ego is writing checks your body can’t cash”.  Those were the immortal words of Captain Tom “Stinger” Jordan in Top Gun.  Of course, he was talking to Maverick, played by Tom Cruise. But that’s a movie, a Hollywood fantasy, it sells well because its what I would like to believe about my own life and abilities, when reality is truly somewhat different.

Odds are, when I use this phrase, especially when I am talking to myself,  I’m talking to someone with considerably less ability, to back up the checks being written, with real life performance. Because I have great difficulty identifying and isolating attachments. Let’s count the ways I’ve used this phrase:

… to someone (myself) who was daring others to take action on some outlandish behavior, just because I didn’t really like those others, at that moment in time …  no other reason … to that person (myself) who is making a rash decision because … just because, because I thought I could …  no other reason, just asserting my specialness … to someone (myself) who just had a wild time in (fill in you last port of call), loudly, confidently, exclaiming, “Really!  When am I going to be in (fill in you last port of call) again?”

Captain Jordan in Top Gun, as I know now, knew that it was all fool’s gold.  Nothing special here at all, just me, myself, and I, stroking my own ego, my own fantasy that I am special. People (myself) that do outlandish things inevitably learn, hopefully, eventually, that they can’t make irresponsible decisions without facing the music. So back to the escapist fantasy. How did it all work out for Maverick?  Crash and burn? Yup, and the real tragedy was that the rubber cheques took Goose and his family down with Maverick. Realization couldn’t bring them back or restore the magic.

It is only in the contrast of my losses and pain that I start to recognize the attachments of my life. This is that process which is described by the Greek wordMetanoia“, that is, changing my mind, and through that my reality. So conversion, contrition and repentance involve and devolve into an internal discussion, a meditation about real “reality” and  how attachments seem to be the lens through which I interpret and act upon events and stimuli in my life and relationships … attachments … all the attachments.

So, how am I to move towards being detached from “the things of this world”, the creatures and treasures which I look to for consolation and pleasure when indulging my self gratification and self worship? I think I have to enter into and accept repentance as pretty much a constant mindset, a basic understanding of the enormity of my life of sin and the greater enormity of God’s eternal mercy and love for me. The eternal is what matters, and only reference to the eternal gives meaning to this world and the perishable material things and creatures of this world.

I am living in my material shell as an eternal “soul”, as the ghost in the shell. The shell is not the “me”. The shell is just the collection of lenses, sensor systems and actuators for the self, but it is not the self. I, me, the “ME”, occupy the shell and look at, interact with, and think about the perishable material plane, and the “things of this world”, but as an eternal soul, not as the shell … which is actually what I really am, that ghost in the shell is where that which makes me “I” actually resides, actually exists.

So, all my life is no more than one night in a bad hotel. More thinking and more understanding required … about repentance as a newly understood way of life, like the Prodigal Son, a new way of life full of painful daily reminders of previous offenses against my Father. I will conclude this with a rather long excerpt from Father John A. Kane:

Fr. John A. Kane

Fr. John A. Kane, 1912 – 1962

“Repentance (from the Greek metanoia) is the mind itself changed and transformed. It is the supernatural conquering the natural. It is the assumption of the spirit of Christ according to the words of St. Paul: “Let this mind be in you which was also in Christ Jesus”. (Phil. 2:5)

Thus it is evident that penitence, in its entirety, is perennial. It has not always the same quality, however. It assumes different phases, and in this respect it is like a lifelong grief. The first outbreak of sorrow will subside. The wilderness of desolation will bloom again with fragrant flowers. In resignation to the divine will, the soul will be flooded with light, peace, and joy.

Then it will glory in the consciousness that it is suffering with Christ. Its sorrow is now more abiding; it has taken root in the very depths of the soul’s consciousness; it clings to the soul far more tenaciously than the first convulsive paroxysm of grief.

Without any external evidence, sorrow has silently transfigured the soul’s life, uniting it more fully, more consciously with its God. A calm and permanent sorrow, which at first terrorized the soul, now lovingly embraces it and gradually sinks into its extreme depths, while externally there may have been no sign of its existence.” (John A. Kane, “How To Make A Good Confession”, pp 11-12)



Quid hoc ad aeternitatem, as old Saint Bernard of Clairvaux used to mumble when faced with the usual parade of travail, what does it matter in the light of eternity?